the story goes on

2007-08-25T00:07:00.000+08:00

Have you had your birthday yet?
nope, but soon...no longer a teenager...lols

Are you with the same person as you were at the beginning of 2007?
i dont think so

Are you still in the same job?
yea

Have you got the same style/colourhair?
diff style??? but diff color

Have you brought a new car this year?
i dont have a license...duh

Have you been involved with the police this year?
i wish

Best drinking hang out places.
Lots this yr...The Loof, MOS, Obar, DBL O

Got a hair cut?
fringe? now ppl say i look stupid...or even behave like one...

Been in hospital this year?
No

Lost someone you cared about this year?
No

Been on a holiday this year?
no

Been in love this year?
hee hee...leave that for your imagination

Completed any studies this year?
Diploma in Interior Design

Read a book this year?
all design related books

worst thing to happen this year?
to start work without having a break + no bonus this yr...dammit

Best thing to happen this year?
finish my dip...finally!!!!

2007-04-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

working is tiring. in fact. living is tiring.

i live. i study. i work. i eat. i sleep. i live

i live. i look forward to weekends. i live

i live. i spent my time with you. i live

i live. i spent my time with myself. i live

i live for the sake of living.

maybe i should live to love you. maybe i shouldn't.

maybe i should live to learn what's right. maybe to learn what's wrong.

what's living?

define life

2007-04-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

under the mask of every man lies the true nature of a beast

what's soooo wrong with this sentence??? and even if it means wrong to u..dun try to correct me..or should i say..u may correct me..but watch ur fucking attitude...

so i am damn pissed today and it's been a loooong loooong time since i spelled this fucking word out and names mentioned...MR POON WEI SIANG!

i dun care how u interprete this sentence and i tell u..i dun come online to get a scolding from u..so mind ur words and there's no way tt i will change my stand because u dun fucking agree...

i'm already feeling damn pissed at work today and the moment i come online..u gave me shit..u told me tt u are irritated by my sentence..so whats the matter with u...i irritate u? i disturb u? make it clear alright who's disturbing you and dun come msging me to fuck here and there...i did nothing wrong so dun ever try to start...

been fucking wrong abt u to even bother to chat with u when i am free..so fucking get lost!

for those who dun noe who this guy is...it's ok....so our conversation started like this...

He swore," I swear to God I'll not do it again !! " said:
i am very disturbed by your statement.... saying every man...

shanshan - On the opposite coast of a smile is something called sadness <> said:
meaning every single person living in this world

shanshan - On the opposite coast of a smile is something called sadness <> said:
meaning u and also me

He swore," I swear to God I'll not do it again !! " said:
thats stereotyping

He swore," I swear to God I'll not do it again !! " said:
i dun fucking wear any mask.

He swore," I swear to God I'll not do it again !! " said:
unless i need to , which is only during work

shanshan - On the opposite coast of a smile is something called sadness <> said:
den dat is ur fucking prob

shanshan - On the opposite coast of a smile is something called sadness <> said:
dun come and fucking correct me

He swore," I swear to God I'll not do it again !! " said:
fuck off

He swore," I swear to God I'll not do it again !! " says:
you came online to say "thats my fucking problem"

He swore," I swear to God I'll not do it again !! " says:
you came online to disturb others

i apologise for the use of vulgar languages here cos i am really very pissed with this childish guy here...and i shall also be childish to delete him off my msn list too...

2007-03-24T21:06:00.000+08:00

WooHoo!!!

it has been 3 weeks since i started work...well..to keep u guys updated..i'm currently working in cpg corp. as a architectural assistant...work is fine so far..get to do things i learnt in school...in fact i learn more at work....except for the first day..i was cleaning up the material library...but i guess tts also a learning process..at least i get to know more materials and finishes other than laminates on plywood backing...lol....but i have to admit that i'm quite slow doing the stuff but jonathan told me not to worry cos all newbies are like tt...

i cant tell u what exactly i'm working on cos i'm not suppose to....i am so f***ing bored in office...i need companions....people there are nice..but i guess i need a friend..someone i noe in school...there's 2 guy from SP DARCH..i cant realli remember their name la...but the chinese guy really kept me entertained in office...so thanks eh..lol

i'm always feel so depressed when it's sunday cos i'll have to work on monday and it's another long week...spending 2 hrs of my day on train...in case u dunno where cpg is...IT'S AT NOVENA...

well well well...i shall end this post....will try to update when i have the time...

2007-02-08T00:46:00.000+08:00

2007-02-03T01:53:00.000+08:00

1.Where did you take your pic?
this pic on my blog was taken in my room

2.What exactly are you wearing rightnow?
pink sleeveless shirt and black pants

3.What is your current problem?
myself

4.What makes you most happy?
shopping alone

5.What's the name of the song thatyou're listening to right now?
i want it tt way-bsb

6.Has anyone close to you died recently?
nope

7.Do you ever watch mtv?
yea..

8. Whats something that really annoys you?
me being senile

chapter1:
1.First name:
Pei Shan

2.Nickname(s):dajie, shanshan, ah shan, big eye monster, tigress, etc.

3.Current location: room

4.Eye color: black

Chapter 2:
1.Do you live with your parents? yeap

2.Do you get along with your parent(s)? not entirely

3.Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
married

4.Do you have any Siblings?
one elder sis

Chapter 3: Favorite...
1. Ice Cream: no favourite

2.Season: rainy days

Chapter 4: Do You..
1.Write on your hand: yea

2.Call people back: ya

3.Believe in love:yes

4.Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
i sleep all over

5. Have any bad habits?
yea..lots..which one do u wanna now?

6. Any mental health issues?
i'm mad

Chapter 5: Have You...
1.Broken a bone: wow....i guess nt

2.Sprained stuff: yea

3.Had physical therapy?
no

4.Gotten stitches:
nope

5.Taken painkillers?
of cos!

6.Gone SCUBA diving or snorkeling:
nope

7.Been stung by a bee:
nope

8.Thrown up at the dentist:
no

9.Sworn in front of your parents:
yea

10.Had detention:
yea.

11.Been sent to the principal's office:
not the principal's

Chaper 6:
1.Who/What was the last1.Movie(s):
deathnote2.

2.Person to text you?
nam ngee.

3.Person who called:
elaine

4.Person you hugged?
my mum

5.Person you tackled?
eh?

6.Thing you touched?:
laptop, mouse

7.Thing you ate?
seaweed!!!

8. Thing you drank?:
lemon juice???

9. Thing you said:
nights

10. Person you MSNed?
kok siung

2007-02-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

chunmeng told me tt i need to change my cv page as de text are tooooooooo small to be read so i decided to change the layout as well since i think tt de previous one is crap....well...this one is nt very well done but at least i think it is presentable..but i dunno what happens to the color when i uploaded this image to blogger..but nvm..it doesnt bother me....lol

2007-01-17T15:13:00.000+08:00

woke up at 6am...realise dat my head is splitting apart. HEADACHE. so i went back to slp.....

woke up at 8am...my headache is nt gone yet. i went to sleep again after sending a msg to eileen.

woke up at 10am...the headache did not seem to go away. i woke up. get ready to have my breakfast.

I ALMOST GOT KNOCKED DOWN BY A CAR. damned dat driver. f***ing asshole who thinks you are a big deal when u have a "BIG" car.

back at home at 1pm. stoning in front of the com. head splitting like nobody's business.
_____________________________________________________________________________________

U! do watever u want! i wash my hands off u! it's none of my business!

2007-01-04T01:36:00.000+08:00

i am so bored and i am in no mood to do my pqm....grrrrrrhhhh

i shall do this top rating thingy for bloggers...like who's blog i luv reading most....lol...it sounds lame and retard la...but i am realli bored...

so currently..the blog i've enjoyed reading is Leslie's blog...i luv it ya..i like the way he writes....

gonna go to sch in a few hours time...ciao ciao

2007-01-04T01:35:00.000+08:00

2006-12-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

1.What did you do in 2006 that you’d never done before?
-entered competitions after another
-merit award for flip
-bronze award for design excellence

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
-yesh

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yea...lots

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yea

5. What countries did you visit?
malaysia is a sure...thailand

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
-money

7. What date(s) from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

-my bdae
-superstar
-when we got in for flip
-when i receive de design excellence award

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
-receiving merit for flip

9. What was your biggest failure?
-not doing well for DID yr 3 (at least nt wat i aimed for)

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
-getting sick every week during submission

11. What was the best thing you bought?
-my samsung phone (forgot the model but u guys noe rite? tt one tt looks like remote control)

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
all

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
no names to be mentioned

14. Where did most of your money go?
making models

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
cant remember

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
none

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
feel de same

thinner or fatter?
fatter

richer or poorer?
poorer

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
work...to score betta grades

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
eat and again...work...haiz..contradicting ya

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
already spent...mahjong night

21. Who deleted question 21?
huh?

22. Did you fall in love in 2006?
yea..i wish i din

23. How many one-night stands?
duh

24. What was your favorite TV program?
home decor survivor???

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
nope..i hate de very same person since 2 yrs ago

26. What was the best book you read?
harry potter and the order of phoenix..cos tts de onli book i finish reading

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
er...dunno

28. What did you want and get?
good grades

29. What did you want and not get?
erm...money? lotsa money?

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
devil wears prada

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
eat and 19 this yr

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
no idea

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
huh?

34. What kept you sane?
all de things

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
no idea

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
i dun bother abt political issues

37. Who did you miss?
family members overseas?

38. Who was the best new person you met?
alexis!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
dun take up DID if you are nt interested...u need the passion to keep u going

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
it's in chinese...so i think forget it

2006-12-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

2006-12-21T15:13:00.000+08:00

updates!

crit was ok but not too good since i din submit fantastic works for x museum...i seriousli dun have time... disappointed in my 3d this time...i onli hit the basic submission requirements and my details are realli pathetic...alexis said tt too! well it is over....

prize presentation for design excellence took place on tues....bronze award...no big deal cos many got de award...but i think i should feel happy...right...SO I AM HAPPY...lol...

was helping my mum with the design of my house since she said she wanted to renovate(tts when she strike toto or big sweep)...aniway...watever i said did not please her..so i ask her to give me a rough idea how her DREAM house looks like...and guess wat....it's just changing of flr tiles and adding in new furnitures....so i am losing my interest in it already....was looking forward initialli since i get to do the design but everything i do is rejected and she said it aint practical...so lalalala.....

vivo city trip was alright...since it's the first time there....BIG! the forms are quite organic..i love the exterior more! went to vivi to have a look since it's a company proj...quite a number of changes since i last seen it..the visual i've prepared is much more different...but i guess it still looks good....i love the restaurant - hei she hui, bosses.... if u know wat it means in chinese then finding the restaurant aint a diff job for u....it is realli outstanding as the shopfront is black..though many shops have black shopfront.. the interior is cool and i like the lights...a combination of the modern and the traditional lights...cool! cool!

had coffee at pacific tt night...the outdoor area is damn cool...i love the swing...i can see sentosa!!! cable cars!!! and bla bla bla!!!

din realli have the mood to shop there as it's realli packed with people...it was so crowded tt i have to squeeze my way through...argh.... hmm...wondering wat i should get for christmas...humpx.....

2006-11-18T15:42:00.000+08:00

17th november 2006 was de presentation for the 3rd FL!P competition...it was pretty fun..though we did not win ani of the top 3...BUT...we did get a merit award...at least it was better than nothing..and it will be in the portfolio...WHICH IS GOOD! and by the way..we're the onli polytechnic that won something in de competition...haha

the announcement of the results feels soooo much like pathlight...judges mentioning us again and again...but we did not win...haix...the base kills the light...and we tot they should judge it in the evening when the light stands out...and not in the morning when the sun was directly behind us....-_-"

ARGH! WE DIN WIN! WE DIN WIN! though i noe these are good experiences...but still...quite demoralising ya...

the food there was alright..except for the lunch...free flow of beer..and jonathan has to keep reminding us to go easy on it...kamini, terrence and i had 3 glasses each and terrence was high...HAHAHA...shall laugh at him on monday...

we met a few SP lecturers last night...sabrina...chin leng(tgt with his wife...surprisingli...he is married!)...the LC lecturer(joyce tan??? dun remember)...and of cos...jonathan and alexis...

here are some of the photos i took last night...

the first throphy for the school of design........

see...it looks good in the evening right?

oops..forgot to mention the venue...NLB...the pod....

nice view!

judges judging the Popular Choice award team from NUS

little woman toilet in NLB

merit and bronze award winning team from NAFA and RAFFLES DESIGN INSTITUTE...

din manage to capture the gold and silver award winning team...

GOLD AWARD: INSPIRATION DESIGN SCHOOL (THE SWASTIKA)
SILVER AWARD: CONSTRUCTION INDUSTRY TRAINING INSTITUTE (WING CHAIR)
BRONZE AWARD: RAFFLES DESIGN INSTITUTE (SHUANG)
MERIT AWARD: SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC (KINDLESTICKS)
MERIT AWARD: RAFFLES DESIGN INSTITUTE (SALJOE)
MERIT AWARD: NANYANG ACADEMY OF FINE ARTS (ZZ TABLE CUM STOOL)
POPULAR CHOICE AWARD: NATIONAL UNIVERSITY OF SINGAPORE (FLAIR F.LOW SEATING)

2006-11-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

1. What is the best nickname that u ever had? no best nickname..most common one is dajie

2. Do you think suicide is the best way?:no..though i tot of dat b4

3. Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10. 7

4. Are you in love with someone at the moment? no

5. Are you missing someone at the moment?:no

6. Would you die for the one you love? yes

7. Do you think love hurts? yes

8. What's the best thing about love at first sight? er? get his number if i dun haf?

9. What's the worst thing about love? when betrayal happens

10. Will you wait for someone you love? yes

11. What song best describes your love life at this moment? ni na me ai ta by li sheng jie

12. Do you wanna get married? i guess so

13. Have you talked to the person you love on the phone? yes

14. Do you keep memories or try to forget them? i dun forget them

15. Is love always on your side or the oppositeway? both

16. Do you have a gay/lesbian/bisexual friend? yea

17. Are you sick of love? bo

18. Are you sick of questions on love? no

19. What are you going to do tomorrow? sch

20. What do u want to do badly right now? eat

21. Do you think money is everything? no

22. What song are you listening right now? 95.8 fm...lol..

23. What's the song that you last download?dun remember...dun dare

24. How much do you love music? i dunno..not alot

25. Do you play an instrument? no

26. Have you written your own song? no

27. What movie did you last watch? stay alive...i kind it nice ok!

28. Do you believe in forever love? no...

2006-11-14T19:41:00.000+08:00

1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LAST EX IF YOU COULD?- most probably not

2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? - adidas shirt

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST? - yesh

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP FRIENDS LIST? - many things..haha

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DOYOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE? huh? means? real life?

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE? eh..2..but i dun wanna gif birth leh

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS? yes and no

8. this qns is not on lijin's blog so i dun have also

9. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX? eeeeeeeeeeeeeee

10. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST B-DAY? haha....home...

11. lijin ate this qns again....

12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY? 12p.m

13. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT THREE NIGHTS AGO? chionging proj...draining me..

14. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED? no..but if u happen to pull..den i am fine la...but dun pull so hard...

15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?! eat?

16. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM? i see her now

17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF? height and to some...weight lor

18. IF YOU HAD 250,000 DOLLARS...WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH IT? haha...study

19. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB? er...i got more than 1 job

20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM? i talked to dick and harry

21. DESCRIBE WHAT UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING? er..i dun remember and i dun bother to c

22. LAST THING YOU ATE? rice with dishes

23. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH? september!

24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH? none

25. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?? eh...i think i dun borrow clothes from anione...i dun remember even if i did

26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW? none...not now

27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE? friendster

28. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED? my sis

29. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD? sad....hmm....eh...HIM!

30. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? no

31. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK? milk

32. HAVE YOU BEEN TO AUSTRALIA? No

33. lost in wonderland again

35. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED,WHAT WOULD YOU DO? die den die lor..den do wat

2006-10-30T18:50:00.000+08:00

should i take up photography????

2006-10-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

1. Time of starting this??
11.18p.m

2. Were you named after anyone??
i dont think so

3. Do you wish on stars?
no..cos i noe it doesnt come true

4. When did you last cry?
a few days ago after watching some drama

5. What is your favourite meat?
no idea...definitely nt beef and fish

6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf??
none

7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you??
yes

8. Are you a daredevil?
yes and no

9. How do you release anger??
taking it out on someone else...punch them...kick them....if they realli pisses me off

10.Where is your second home?
school

11. Do you trust others easily??
sometimes yes..but most of de time nt

12. What was your favourite toy as a child?
soft toys...i treat them like my babies

13. What subject in school do you think is totally useless?
i think none is totally useless...but there's one that i dun realli like...and tt's theory

14. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
yes

15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?? Supposed is it an area in front of a
concert stage in which audience members mosh?
apa?

16. What do you look for in a guy/girl???
guy - pretty, shy, killer smile, mr super-nice, gentlemen, charismatic, got character(attitude nvm, don't attitude me can already), suave, etc.
as long as he dun irritate me! and looks good...not very handsome..but at least i can stand looking at him for some time...

17. Would you bungee jump??
no! i'll die!

18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
no. wats de point? i am lazy to re-tie them.

19. What's your favourite ice cream flavour?
choc

20. what are your favourite colours??
white . blue . black

21. What is your least favourite thing??
no idea

23. What do you miss most right now??
food

24. What are you listening to right now??
canto song by leo ku

25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
blue

26. What is the weather like right now??
i hope it rains

27. Last person you talked to on the phone??
mummy?
mum...

28. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex??
looks

29. Do you like the person who sent you this??
yes

30. How are you today?
excited

31. Favourite drink?
used to be full cream milk...but now low fat milk :(

32. Favourite alcoholic drink??
vodka

33. Natural hair colour??
black

34. Eye colour??
brown

35. Wear contacts??
nah

36. Siblings??
elder sis

37. Favourite month??
september...wake me up when september ends

38. Favourite food??
i eat almost all edible food

39. Last movie you watched?
STAY ALIVE! i love it ok

40. Favourite day of the year??
25th sept...though this day this year is a lil crappy

41. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out??
yes

42. Scary movies or happy endings??
both

43. Summer or winter??
both

44. Hugs or kisses??
BOTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

45. Do you want your friends to write back?
watever

46. Who is most likely to respond?
no idea...doesnt matter

47. Who is least likely to respond??
read the answer above

48. What book/magazine are you reading?
not reading ani

49. What's on your mouse pad?
mouse?

50. What did you watch on TV last night?
can't remember

51 Favourite Smell??
definitely nt lavender

52 do you regret ever breaking up with someone??
NO!

53. Time of finishing?
11.36p.m

2006-10-10T01:23:00.000+08:00

not been updating lately cos i dunno where to start...so many things happened...

rushing for submission as usual. nanny is in hospital. facing a few death. i'm afraid of this n dat.

personally..i seriousli dun think i am afraid of death. cos i dun like the feeling of people leaving me...i mean who likes it...no one does...but everyone will have to face this..you may say that i am one who doesn't face up to reality, complaining too much cos it is something tt will happen n complaining does nt help.

all these i know. i know i have to face it.

i can solve other problems. relationship. work. and other stuff. but i cnt face death. the feeling is bad. it is terrible. although my nanny stays in malaysia n i dun really get to see her often. but she is a nice lady who adores her grandchildren. i cnt bear to see her suffer. i just cant. i have not been working hard on my proj, i felt so lost. though i tried to work on it. but i just couldnt settle down quietly to work on it. my mind is blank. the feeling is so hard to describe.

after the stage performance is done. there's this next hurdle i have to cross. troubled. depressed. but wat can i do? i helplessly watched my mum and my aunts getting worried and crying. they talked on phone. travel in and out so often of malaysia. getting so weary after each visit. i've never seen them like this before. i never even experience this before though my grandfather, my greatgrandmother passed away some years ago. there isnt much impact on me then cos i was young and they werent so close to me afterall.

i had alot of fun in malaysia and each visit there brings so much memories of fun n laughter. recently, the tot of going there is terrible. i hope i dun have to go back there at this time. i dun want anything to happen. i dread phone calls now. no news is good news.

i had this dream before i knew abt my nanny. something abt death tt leaves a deep impact on me. i seldom have dreams and i had tt similar dream twice. i knew something was going to happen. it might be superstitious or other terms u may call it. but it really something terrible. cos i couldn't get it off my mind. as especially in times like now. the more i could nt forget it. put urself into my shoe. facing the same situation. with my very own set of thinking. it seems like u're watching some horror movies and u never know what is going to happen next. all u can do is helplessly stay put at tt spot waiting for it to happen. whatever u do does nt help.

so i was chatting with a few pals and they were saying that she'll be fine. they told me not to worry. all these words of console. guys, i noe u all mean well, u wan me to move on, u dun want me to worry. but sometimes u know, some things are better left unsaid cos i noe the situation better. alot of times, i wanted to talk it out so all these does not bottle up and make me suffocate. but these words of console seriousli make me feel worst. i just need a listener. the constant words like "move on", "there's nth u can do" and lotsa other stuff really make myself seems so useless. some compared the situation i am facing to theirs, but no one faces the same incident and even if it does, we are both different, the way we think, the way we handle things are different. it has gt nothing to do with u being strong n weak. it's how you see things. the perception.

i am nt putting the blame in anyone cos u all meant well. still, i have to thanks all those who have been hearing all these problems i am facing.

i am nt trying to pick a fight here so please...do nt misinterprete my entry. i am just writing how i feel at this very moment.

2006-09-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

100th POST!

u c me as a happy girl...

i seriously tell u that i'm not

the 19th birthday is my worst birthday so far.

i don't wish for another birthday

2006-09-15T17:52:00.000+08:00

see what i'm holding????? it is a condom choc from taiwan!!! i love it!!!

2006-09-13T16:10:00.000+08:00

You Communicate With Your Eyes

When you say, "I'll believe it when I see it" - you really mean it.
For you, what you see is a lot more important than what you hear.
You don't take someone's words at face value. You judge people by their facial expressions, body language, and appearance.
You tend to be quiet, but when you talk, you tend to make eye contact and describe things in colorful detail.

How Do You Communicate?

2006-09-13T16:06:00.000+08:00

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a giving soul. Way too giving in fact. You often get stuck doing the dirty work that no one else will do.

You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.

You are a little shy and easily embarrassed. You often wonder if you are normal.

In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

2006-09-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

was reading my classmates blog and i guess i seriousli missed out lotsa fun..they had so many outings...so happening...

and me? i'm a no life person...work...work...and more work....it's vacation and i'm doing work...

it's depressing

i need a life!

but why am i complaining??? i brought it upon myself...so serve me right

2006-09-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

On the day I couldn't see
my heart I felt insecure
The meaning of loving somebody
it's something I decide myself
truth can be found in everything

I promise you, I won't wander off anymore
I'll be strong...and prove myself to you
I won't run away, I'll turn around to face you
so I can see how you feel, to heart

I will believe
so the two of us can be together in love
In order for my wish to reach the sky
I will look for you, and pray for the two of us
A pair of thoughts, now they can come
together and from a whole
Your precious love

When pain or bitterness pulls us
apart, we can hold each other
We're no longer alone,
because everything is answered by true love

I will believe
so the two of us can be together in love
I'll hold your hand forever, don't let go,
let's make a promise, the two of us
A pair of thoughts, now they can come
together and from a whole
Just the two of us

I believe that right now we can
strengthen this young and complacent love
There can be truth
A new beginning
I want to be one with you

I will believe
that we can come together
right now, right here, and love each other
So in order to light your light fill me
I hug you tightly

I will believe
so the two of us can be together in love
In order for my wish to reach the sky
I will look for you, and pray for the two of us
A pair of thoughts, now they can come
together and from a whole
Your precious love

2006-09-02T00:55:00.000+08:00

back to my blog from a whole lot of stuff... still have tonnes of work to be done...

i'm finally back to my fav activity...yes! watching dramas and crying over it....

finish watching umizaru, ichi rittoru no namida and ai qing mo fa shi....all these 3 drama realli rawks...was crying and laughing like siao...but ichi rittoru no namida is a realli touching show, based on a true life story in japan...highly recommended! the girl in the show is pretty too...umizaru got lotsa hunks ya....story is nice too! ai qing mo da shi may seem a lil stupid to some..but that is also my type of drama....

now it's a lil bored cos i've finish up all my dramas...i shall watch them all over again...probably starting from MARS....den follow by de others....leave work aside first..enjoy myself till the fullest during this holiday...

just spent 150 bucks on shopping in left then 5 hours....i wonder where i spent....

broke...broke...broke... i shall ask for more money!!! from edmund..gonna charge by per job la..now i realise i am realli underpaid...dammit...stupid me!

i wanna learn more languages...jap?? malay??? canto??

tomorrow is yhss appreciation day celebration day...regina is meeting me to yhss for a chat...and to visit the teachers...happy teachers' day!

2006-08-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

Invitation to Yuhua Secondary School Alumni
Appreciation Day 2006

Once again, Teachers' Day is round the corner. Miss your secondary school
teachers? Miss that classmate of yours that you have not seen for ages? Here is
your chance to catch up with them!

Weblink: http://yhss.sgwow.com
Event : Appreciation Day 2006

Date & Time: 2 Sep 2006, Saturday, 4pm to 8pm
4pm to 6pm Mini Sports Games
6pm to 8pm Dinner

Venue: Yuhua Secondary School
35, Jurong West Street 41
Singapore 649406

Cost: $12 (for dinner)

Appreciation Day 2006 is the event name chosen to hold post Teachers’ Day
celebration for both alumni and the current students. The event starts with mini
sports games from 4pm to 6pm. Most of the mini sports games participants are
existing students. The top winning teams will be presented with prizes. Dinner
starts from 6pm to 8pm and includes table games and lucky draws. We are
targeting and expecting a total of 400 participants which comprises of (ex)
principals, (ex) teachers, alumni and current students.

Mini Sports Games (4pm to 6pm) - Were you in the Sports Clubs? Or are you and
your ex-classmates good at certain sport games? Form up a team of 5 and pit your
skills against the best of the current students! Type of matches available:
Badminton, Basketball, Soccer, Captain’s Ball. Note that this is just a friendly
match to mix within the alumni and the current students. And yes, there will be
prizes for the top 3 teams.

Did we miss something? Email us and we will try to add it in.
Dinner (6pm to 8pm) - Post Teachers’ Day celebration is the highlight of the
event. Meet your favourite (ex) teachers and catch up with that ex-classmate of
yours that you have not seen for ages. Network with your old and new made
friends. We cut the dinner short so that you can plan your own class gathering.
We are in the midst of requesting special rates on popular places which you can
visit even after the event. We shall not reveal all the mini surprises that we
have in store for you. We hope you love them!

Mini Carnival - For $20, we can help you to set up a booth to promote your
products and services. The money collected goes to the alumni fund to help cover
administration expenses for the current and future events. Email us today!
How You Can Contribute - We are constantly looking for volunteers and sponsors
to help us run the alumni and events better. If you wish to
help/sponsor/contribute or advertise for your business, please email us and we
will get back to you.

Things You Can Do From Now till the Event
Request for a (ex) teacher/student to be present. Please provide personnel
details.
Request for a (song) dedication to a/an (ex teacher/student to be present.
Please provide details for message and personnel details and song if applicable.
Register for the event (Dinner).
Register for the Mini Sport Games.

2006-08-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!

submission and crit is finally over

though i did not meet all de submission requirements..but i still feel so shiok cos i can finally have a good rest after sleeping for 2 hours almost everyday

crit was fine..but i was too tense...as usual..did not manage to present my stuff well in front of the crit panels..and i was grabbing my head...there's guest crit..she asked lotsa questions...haha..well..it is over

weiling and de other part time lecturers are leaving...i like them...they're always supportive to our designs...

today's mummy's birthday!!! went makan today after sleeping for more than 12 hours....den went home to catch some anime before i go to sleep again...and had dinner with my mum and sis after her work...den here i am blogging here...

gotta go to school to help out in the exhibition thingy tomorrow in school...i do hope that my friends did well for their crit today..and whoever is critting on thursday...

i feel so happy...haha

nothing much to blog about for the time being...i shall go back to my anime and probably see u guys soon!!! cya!

2006-08-14T02:12:00.000+08:00

10 days since i've blogged

it is submission day!

my works ain't up to standard...i am filled with disappointment...with myself

but i am not going to care about it anymore...cos i feel really pissed with printing...printers and my favourite lappy

everything seems to be giving my problems during submission period...

for the first time i felt like giving up and i did! i did not fulfill the submission requirements...

well...2.09am...stopping all my works...blogging now..being i get shoot down during my crit

lets c what i've done...

1) 1:100 model for t2a
2) 1:200 model for t2a & b
3) lotsa massing models
4) printed my cad drawings but gotta reprint
5) 2 furnitures (muji and green each)
6) theory of design
7) perspectives
8) material board

show u my perspective...total disappointment

how wonderful ya! worse than yr 1 standard....losing confidence in 3d....

right...

sleeping time!

2006-07-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

a great day....thanks to yixian...chalet was too fun..though i slept alot...haha....i love u!! and once again...thanks ya....

cleared things up...so not gonna comment on anything *shut up* (i mean myself ya)

i think i am into drinking again...ben ben...dun make me drink more...

am i a happy soul??? it's all up to u to judge

2006-07-25T08:47:00.000+08:00

Get your own countdown at BlingyBlob.com

2006-07-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

was thinking over what edmund had said yesterday at work....

"...environment has never change..human has changed..."

in certain aspects..i do agree that human has changed...

i've changed over the years...

you've changed too...

2006-07-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

It's daddy's birthday...no celebration today...something else was on...wednesday shall be the day...sorry to weesoon...dun think i'd be able to celebrate with u if the gang is planning something on de day...

Happy Birthday to Daddy!!!

i love daddy...

2006-07-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

visit my cousin today...she's in good condition...the baby is good too....
isn't she cute??

CONGRATULATIONS ON THEIR NEW BORN BABY GIRL!

2006-07-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 8 today....i did work...but not schoolwork...was helping edmund to do something in the office...i cant believe tat i actually went to work today...counting down to 3 weeks and i am still working...well..i can't help it..i'm too broke..i cnt survive...

Went to bras basah to help my dad collect something from the NTUC building...hehe..i realise i can read maps...haha...perhaps not because i am smart...i guess it was rather easy to get there...pretty straightforward ya...nah...tts not the point...

well...then...i head for work...there was still some time before i start work so i decided to take the long way transport..which was to walk to bugis and took a train to city hall then dhoby ghaut and finally farrer park....reach office just in time 11a.m...but no one was there -_-"...so i called edmund, and he reached within 5 mins...alright...work started...it ain't a diff job..it was easy...but time consuming....hehe..nt going to tell u wat it is...but i guess u wun be interested aniway....

so chatting while working...what's new ya..like i always do...chatting about sch politics...people and stuff like dat...i just love to bitch about ppl..i guess i can never change that..then mr edmund ng is as "kind" as usual...he was trying to matchmake me with "dashu"...hmm...seems like he's enjoying that since yr one...always there to help me look out for guys around me...i was telling him that weijie is a nice person...too nice!!! haha....

so boss left office at about 1 plus for his camp thingy...leaving me all alone in the office till siti comes in..which is about 5 plus i think...loneli...loneli..loneli...but no worry..i got my darling with me...my laptop!!! Poh did not come in today...was so disappointed...i was just too bored..i need him to entertain me...Then...about 7 plus..joshua came and say hi to me...he kept calling me xiao mei mei...haha...ppl usualli call me auntie..

i left office at about 8.45....without completing my work...it was rather impossible to finish all the work by today la...i met deon on de way back...she's working today...i asked her how her work is coming along...she told me not to mention it...haha...i told her "see u next yr!" well..i got no other intention saying this...what i meant was most of us still hasn't done work...so i guess we will just get shoot down during crit....if anione is offended by this sentence of mine...then too bad...i wun explain..cos there is no point doing that...NO HARD FEELINGS YA!

oh ya!!! i forgot to mention about something that made me realli happi today....my cousin gave birth to a baby girl...well it doesn't seem to be realli concern me but i'm realli excited and i do feel happy for her...CONGRATS!..

all of a sudden...i felt that i still believe in love..after so many things happened...love means many things here ya...so think more than just in-terms of relationships...

love's beautiful...so beautiful...

2006-07-21T18:54:00.000+08:00

Ben read my blog and he saw this countdown thingy and he called me up...asking me what do i want for my birthday..i told him i'm a greedy girl..i want lotsa things...eventually...we went into the discussion about wishes...i wanted a mp3 last yr for my bdae and it came true..my dad bought it for me...this yr..i wish for a adidas jacket...you know i simply love adidas...saving up for it..but too broke to think of it now...actually wat i wan is simple...i am not a materialistic woman...i wanna be happy and i want people who i care about to be happy too!!! Oh ya!!! i wan to have a 3kg cake i used to have and share it with my buddies!!! so Mr. Tan...if you are thinking of buying me prezzies... i'd rather u buy me cake...need not be 3kg la...tt can last for a few days..haha...i wanna share it with u and the bud.s......Love u all lots!

2006-07-21T18:31:00.000+08:00

UNDERSTAND???

> u don't __________

>> u just won't __________

>>> u will never __________

>>>> cos you don't know what is meant by __________

2006-07-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

i shall try very hard to keep my mouth shut and cause anymore arguments...in school or at home....

NO MORE ARGUMENTS PLEASE! it onli make me feel more pissed...eventualli..no one will admit their mistakes...who will? i won't...but who suffer? you won't! it's none of your business...i just feel more pissed...and all these are the reasons that cause me to feel old every second...well well well...i shall promise myself not to scold vulgar languages...refrain from talking to people whom i think i will often argue of pick up a fight with....refrain from anything that will make myself agitated...

so u people who's reading my blog noe who you are yea...dun try to irritate me...i'm trying very hard not to get real pissed...friends who've known me better noe how i will react...i dun wanna do all those stuff i used to do...NO MORE YA!!! so please please please....i will refrain all these..so dun irritate me....

so this shall be my last post of complaining about friends and family...no more posts about my problems...no one will care aniway...

alright...seriousli...no more fighting...i will learn to control...

P~E~A~C~E

2006-07-19T01:02:00.000+08:00

2006-07-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

i guess i love being alone

a loner i may be

i need no distraction

2006-07-09T13:09:00.000+08:00

went to the ndp rehearsal ytd with patsy and weesoon..thanks to eugene and patsy for the tickets....it was quite fun...and i got to see my favourite NS men!!! haha...patsy love the navy uniform guys while i like the commandos in red beret (well...i dunno the unit name)...they look so good in the uniform! patsy is going to blame eugene for not joining navy...haha...

there's so many people in the stadium larx...see a lot of uncles and auntie...it's nt something unusual since it's suppose to be a family day performance...the best performance that me and patsy like most is probably the marching part..cos we see so many guys in uniforms...other than that...i suppose it's the fireworks...

i tot that the parachute team did not do very well today partly because maybe it's due to the wind..or some other reasons...well i dunno about that...but they do look a bit messy today...as compared to the past previews i've watched during ndp...i know it ain't easy to do that and achieve what's perfect in everyone's viewpoint...but that's what i tot...from my point of view at least....

we bought too many tidbits...so patsy gotta dabao some of them in the end...hehe...sorry weesoon for making u pay for them...patsy and i then head for suntec to haf our dinner as we felt very hungry...and we took bus 16...had macdonalds and chat a lil...chat about the past..about secondary school life and fashion sense during the time....it was so fun thinking about the past...life's in de past is realli fun...

2006-07-01T15:51:00.000+08:00

SHOULD I...

dye my hair or keep it black?

straighten or curl my hair??

further my studies or work???

take up architecture or interior design???

go into rendering line or design????

argh...so many things to decide in life
all these might be small little things that occur in life...but trust me...they do trouble u

2006-06-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

4th day since school starts this term....

been sick for the 2nd day...feeling bad..bad..and nothing worse than that....

i couldn't breath properly...with one of my nostrils blocked...

i went to see a doctor yesterday...but i started coughing today...so i dun have any medicine for that....

ain't going to visit the doctor again...enough of waiting and waiting...

left school early for a nap at home..but i guess i slept too long....well, not going to do much work today...shall leave it for tomorrow..

i'm obsessed into watching you tube and reading edison's blog....fun fun fun...it's better than doing work

shit...my nose starts to "leak" again...argh....

alright...end my post here...gonna take a break again....

2006-06-26T00:59:00.000+08:00

(x) Copied this list

( ) smoked a cigarette

( ) smoked a cigar

(x) been high

(x) been drunk

(x) kissed a member of the same sex

(x) been in love

(x) been dumped

(x) dumped someone

( ) been fired

( ) been in a fist fight

(x) snuck out of your parent's house

(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back

( ) been arrested

( ) made out with a stranger

(x) gone on a blind date

(x) lied to a friend

(x) had a crush on a teacher

(x) skipped school

( ) slept with a co-worker

(x) seen someone die

(x) had a crush on one of your internet friends

( ) been to Canada

( ) been to Mexico

(x) been on a plane

(x) thrown up in a bar

(x) set a part of myself on fire

(x) eaten sushi

( ) been snowboarding

( ) been moshing/crowd surfing at a show

( ) been in an abusive relationship

(x) taken painkillers

(x) love someone or miss someone right now

(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by

( ) made a snow angel

(x) had a tea party

(x) built a sand castle

(x) gone puddle jumping

(x) played dress up

(x) jumped into a pile of leaves

( ) gone sledding

(x) cheated while playing a game

(x) been lonely

(x) fallen asleep at work/school

(x) used a fake id

(x) watched the sun set

( ) felt an earthquake

( ) touched a snake

(x) slept beneath the stars

(x) been tickled

( ) been robbed

(x) been misunderstood

( ) pet a reindeer/goat

(x) won a contest

( ) ran a red light

( ) been suspended from school

( ) been in a car accident

( ) had braces

(x) felt like an outcast

(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night

(x) danced in the moonlight

(x) hated the way you look

( ) witnessed a crime

(x) questioned your heart

(x) been obsessed with post-it notes

(x) squished barefoot through the mud

(x) been lost

(x) been to the opposite side of the country

( ) swam in the ocean

(x) felt like dying

(x) cried yourself to sleep

(x) played cops and robbers

(x) sung karaoke

(x) paid for a meal with only coins

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't

(x) made prank phone calls

( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue

(x) danced in the rain

( ) written a letter to Santa Claus

(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about

(x) blown bubbles

( ) made a bonfire on the beach

(x) crashed a party

(x) gone rollerskating

(x) had a wish come true

( ) humped a monkey

(x) worn pearls

( ) jumped off a bridge

( ) ate dog/cat food

( ) told a complete stranger you loved them

(x) kissed a mirror

(x) sang in the shower

(x) have a black dress

(x) had a dream that you married someone

(x) glued your hand to something

( ) got your tongue stuck to something metal

( ) kissed a fish

(x) been a cheerleader

( ) sat on a roof top

(x) screamed at the top of your lungs

( ) done a one-handed cartwheel

(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours

(x) stayed up all night

( ) didn't take a shower for a week

( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree

(x) climbed a tree

( ) had a tree house/club house

(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone

(x) believe in ghosts

( ) slept naked

( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say

( ) played ding-dong-ditch

( ) played chicken

(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on

(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger

( ) broken/fractured a bone

( ) caught a fish then ate it

( ) caught a butterfly

(x) laughed so hard you cried

(x) cried so hard you laughed

(x) cheated on a test

(x) have a Britney Spears CD

(x) forgotten someone's name

2006-06-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

went to K-BOX with beatrice and bing jie...well...it was sort of fun...as usual..beatrice and i have lotsa secrets...so we spent time sharing our little secrets..talking about the past..

i realise that my life was much more happier before i stepped into poly...the people i met before poly was way much fun and understanding...Dun be mistaken by what i've said earlier...i'm not trying to say that people in my course ain't good...There're nice people around too! People like xian, patsy, sherrie, weesoon, suwei, nam ngee and kamini....BLA BLA BLA...those who i tag along with usually...yea..the usual gang....

But i still love my friends...ben especially...thanks for being by my side...listening to all my sorrows and etc...muacks...haha...

DARK SECRETS??

2006-06-20T16:56:00.000+08:00

i was so bored doing space planning again and again and i decided to do something more fun....

which was to compile my pictures into some kind of "movie"

LORX....

visit my friendster to see what's going on!

2006-06-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

first, name 20 people you think of now before answering the questions below tag 5 person to do this,if he/she done it,there's no need to redo it again.

1) joseph
2) allan
3) patsy
4) suwei
5) sherrie
6) kamini
7) yan han
8) beatrice
9) bing jie
10) anna
11) evangeline
12) kok siung
13) nam ngee
14) mun hong
15) regina
16) viory
17) sok hui
18) jesper
19) yi xian
20) wei jie

When did you meet 14?
during primary school...

What will you do if you never meet 1 before ?
er...i guess i'll feel damn bored if he weren't here to entertain me

What will you do if 20 and 9 dated?....
goodness...da shu and bing jie...maybe they can be together ya..who noes...

Did you ever like 19?
I love yixian!!!haha...well...she's a great friend i've got to noe in poly

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
of cos not!! sok hui already have lionel larx...

Describe 3.
Patsy is the most interesting girl i've met since poly...She first reminds me of PEPSI larx..haha...

Do you think 8 is attractive?
er...in fact...i find her cute...maybe thats what makes her attractive..

Tell me something about 7.
don't noe him that well though...but he is a guy who used to change his hair color quite often...a very happening guy with lotsa activities and bla bla bla...

Do you know any of the 12's family member?
er...i dun think so...

What's 8 favourite thing?
hmm...not sure...perhaps me?? i'm her se jie...lol

What would you do if 11 confess that he/she likes you?
i will laugh cos it's a thing that will never happen...she's my cousin...

What language does 15 always speak?
chinese

Who is 9 going out with?
not sure...

How old is 16 now?
19

When is the last time you talk to 13?
erm...last week? on msn??? can't remember

Who's 2 favourtie singer/band?
eh...no idea...i guess no particular favourites...

Would you date 4?
OF COS!

Would you date 7?
i guess so...y not?

Is 15 single?
no...taken

What's 10 last name?
Hu

Would you ever be in a relationship with 11?
NO!

What school does 3 goes to?
same as me...singapore poly

Where does 6 live?
dover, just beside school

What's your favourite thing about 5?
she's the mushroom!!!

Have you seen 1 naked?
no

5 people to do this lame thing
sok hui, jesper, anna, viory, bing jie

2006-06-17T15:42:00.000+08:00

Went to school yesterday and found out that Mr. Lehning Goh only wanted us to pin up our works. So we wasted 2 hours in school just to do that. However, kamini and i decided go to town...then, patsy joined us...followed by suwei, lijin, sherrie and my other friend allan. We took lotsa pictures...

These are some of the pictures we took....

2006-06-15T12:48:00.000+08:00

i am procrastinating

thinking there's always a tomorrow...
a never-ending tomorrow

what if there's no more tomorrow?

2006-06-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

what is she thinking?

what am i thinking?

what are you thinking?

what are you doing? start thinking

2006-06-13T14:35:00.000+08:00

we bitch about every single thing in our life

we complain about every single person that comes across the path

we live and we learn to survive

what's wrong?

what's right?

How do you define LIFE?

2006-06-08T18:44:00.000+08:00

is this what we meant by feeling blue?

2006-06-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

2006-06-05T22:08:00.000+08:00

Since it's been some days since i last updated...I shall write about what happen during the past few days...

Saturday was the opening party for cafe domus @ 124 owen road... In fact, the party started on thursday... Well..met a very irritating guy there..He was Joshua's fren...damn irritating..asking so many qns...Heard from my fren that he even went to get my friend's number...LOL...is he dat despo?

Went shopping with my cousin on Sunday...other den dat...was basically watching the korean drama "Little Bride" and was laughing mad...

Today went to skate with some friends at JEC...Wasn't feeling to well but still went ahead..well i promise them i'll go....It was pretty fun except that i realise i did not really have the talent for that sport..haha..was walkin on ice instead of skating...Falling on ice ain't aomething surprising i thought...

I gotta work tomorrow...I feel so underpaid..I'm so stressed up..I need money...ARGH!!!

2006-06-01T11:17:00.000+08:00

F.A.R.E.W.E.L.L

Chin Kwang

Wei Jie

Mun Ching

Yesterday's party was a FUN one

Does what's ahead seems insignificant?

2006-05-28T16:02:00.000+08:00

i was doing a personality test and i came across this familiar sentence:

"Our mind is like the parachute. It works best when it is opened."

2006-05-25T14:41:00.000+08:00

I think i ain't a good girl...that's why all these are happening to me...
do i deserve? to be loved? by people around me? be it friends...family...

re-C.Y.C.L.I.N.G begins
a new chapter of life starts

2006-05-25T14:18:00.000+08:00

T.H.A.N.K.S

to the DID pals who's been with me on 24th May

2006-05-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

F.A.M.I.L.Y L.I.F.E L.O.V.E

i don't like the present condition

2006-05-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

C.O.N.C.E.P.T

D.E.S.I.G.N

2006-05-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

A.R.C.H.I.T.E.C.T.U.R.E
-Kisho Kurokawa Architects

2006-05-19T21:03:00.000+08:00

B.O.R.E.D

2006-05-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

I love this photograph

Who says black & white images ain't interesting?

2006-05-09T18:51:00.000+08:00

I'm a Chihuahua???

Take this test to find out which breed of dog u belong to...
http://web.tickle.com/dog/

2006-05-07T13:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm...been busy lately....it's either working or schooling...and i Want PARTY!!! was discussing with peeps about partying for chunmeng's bdae and meanwhile..i'm having plans for my bdae too! i want to have a party...

The other time when i was blogging...i wrote down a list of people whom i wanted to invite but i think i pressed some button and the whole list DISAPPEARED!

So here i am re-writing the list...

1. Jospeh
2. Yuqi
3. Jolene
4. Yin fong
5. Mun hong
6. Jia feng
7. Daniel Liang
8. Daniel Teo
9.Yong Teck

10. Regina
11. Jesper
12. Viory
13. Yi In
14. Benson
15. Kok Siung
16. Leslie
17. Lin Sing
18. Sok Hui + Lionel??
19. Suan Zhi
20. Rachael
21. Koon Guan
22. Keng Hwee
23. Justin
24. Wei Zhong
25. Meng Zhong
26. Shahid
27. Jasrizal
28. Maria

29. Yi xian
30. Nam Ngee
21. Suwei
22. Kamini
23. Sherrie
24. Patsy + Eugene??
25. Lijin
26. Terrence + Clarise???
27. Chun Meng
28. Eileen
29. Edwin
30. Dana

31. Harry
32. Jian Sheng
33. Allan
34. Bing Jie
35. Beatrice
36. Kai Feng
37. Mun Ching
38. Wei Jie

39. Anna
40. Amy
41. Evangeline

and bla bla whom i forgot who who who to invite....

Oh ya!!!

42. My sister
43. Yan Han
44. Wee soon
45. Clement
46. Junda
47. Janice

but this sounds a lil impossible hor...haha.....

Anyway..these are those whom i still keep contact with la...

2006-05-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

A.T.T.I.T.U.D.E

I've been in a foul mood lately...but i seriously dun think it is entirely my fault.

Like today, I went to the school'd Food Court 5 for lunch today...was Q-ing up behind sherrie..so she ordered the food...waited for quite some time for the food.... 1o mins past...it was finally my turn....Then, the lady(nt sure if she's a malay or indian), came over and flip the so called "menu" on de table...So i could clearly see the word "SORRY, COUNTER CLOSE. PLEASE PROCEED TO THE NEXT COUNTER" I should not be angry with this as i knew they're busi and there's a lot of ppl. What i am pissed is that the lady was giving some kind of attitude and her service realli SUX! Plus, i am too hungry to wait for the queue again! So i decided not to eat. I'd rather go to the co-op shop and have cup noodles instead.

And next is my display picture on msn. Stop commenting on it...whether it looks pleasant or not to u, tt is my picture, u dun have to care if it looks good or bad...I can put up whatever i want, it is my freedom. And please dun control what i say...i can say anything i wan...U can be feeling unpleasant for me speaking vulgar languages...Just turn away...

I was never a well-mannered girl and i will never be one...

I wanna enjoy being a narcissist

2006-05-01T12:22:00.000+08:00

This is what i've done yesterday...

2006-04-26T14:56:00.000+08:00

2.54p.m, Wednesday

At home, doing schwork

Not a smooth day..i foresee what's ahead..i sense trouble

Woke up at 10a.m..did the usual cleaning up

The first thing my mum did was to greet me with her nonsense and scolding...

I did not remember doing anything wrong...i was fed up but i kept quiet

I was feeling down...dunno y either...

yesterday's party was not fun and we are not really enjoying...

Let me recall what exactli has happened yesterday...

Was in school in de day...met edmund and was told to make ammendments for VIVI

It already spoil my mood..but i understand dat that was my job and i had to do it...

at the office...i was once again reminded to do work...

i tried not to show much of my ATTITUDE in office...yet my friends notice it...

At the cafe...the lights dim...i saw flash coming from here n dere...

i knew my eyes would hurt..i kept quiet..hoping not to spoil the others mood...

I saw him taking photographs...i tried to keep a distance away from him...

He offered to take pictures...but suwei and i turn down de offer...

I hate the flash..but no offence to him

We had comments on de design...we kept that among us

We left at 10.30p.m

As we were heading towards the station..I was a distance behind them

rubbing my eyes

Headed home alone when they alighted at dhoby ghaut

Reached home at 11.30p.m

I was tired...

Eyes were red and swollen as i woke up in the morning...

Had no one else to blame.I chose to be silent

By to today...3.13p.m

5 mins ago...It was raining...It is still raining

My mum shouted

I realise i did not collect the bed that was outside...it is now wet

I've got nothing to sleep on tonight...

3 cheers for dat...

My head is spinning and i forgot all about the bed

another 3 cheers...

I'm feeling blue...but there's nothing i could do...

A bird without it's wing flies higher

2006-04-21T00:44:00.000+08:00

4th day since sch started...

been a lot more vulgar lately...due to the amount of stress i've been absorbing...

I have not been paying much attention during lesson...i dun understand what the tutors are talking about...i dunno what's going on in sch...

Was working yesterday...nothing unusual...

Came back from site (clifford pier)...a gigantic space...had to measure the site using some measuring tapes...

Took images...noting down the dimensions....

not in a mood to do work...i hate life...working...studying...

is that the life we're seeking to lead?

2006-02-24T13:17:00.000+08:00

Yr 2 has ended....Not a bad year...i guess it was not too good either...

Many things happened...i sense what happens around me...both good and bad....

Doesn't realli bother me much...things just come and go as they please

Itp is around the corner...mixed feeling...

Watched The Fog..an 1hr 4omin movie...the rating wasn't bad..

Went shopping...the urge of spending $$ could not be resist...

It is 1.27p.m......i'm gone

2006-02-10T00:54:00.002+08:00

I'm sooooooooooooooooooooo tired...

I haven started tod..haven read the articles...argh...i'm so lazy...haiz...

Just finished my gems report...it was badly done..nvm...

Went to nam's place after seeing some of my mate's crit..i guess today's crit was not too bad..perhaps for a few person's crit ba...had lotsa jokes today...many sounds wrong la...well..seems that everything we said sounds wrong...cos we're simply too wrong...what's dis suppose to mean? haha...

Reached his place at about 5.20p.m i think..first thing we did when we settle down at his place is to started gambling...Haiz...haha...Won some $$...not alot.. Wee soon lost a lot..Then nam ngee's fren reached at abt 8p.m and perhaps we dun noe them well..there were some unhappiness among us...and Wee soon was quite fed up...it's all written in his face ya...

Got home at 9p.m....had dinner again...argh..i realli cannot finish up the food...so i spent one whole hour trying to finish the food but i failed...Already had a sumptous dinner at Nam's place since she prepared our food...Heh Heh...She's a great cook! omelette was so nice..my favourite..the veggies, soup and a lot more...Had quite alot cos i think it ain't too nice if we dun cos she has been very kind to prepare our share of food....seems quite rude if we dun eat ya?

Thanks Nam! n ur mummy!

2006-02-08T22:07:00.000+08:00

Crit is over!!!! Yeah!!

had the final crit today...erm..it was ok..gotta do some refinements..finish up model and do a walk-thru? we'll c how things goes..perhaps no time for walk thru...will finish the model for sure...Comments were given...Layout of the panels have improved but aint realli good...erm..got an excuse la..photoshop crashed...but think that is nt realli a good one...was partly my fault..should have started earlier....Crit panels said sometimes i should see the space as a third-party so i can understand the project betta...too focus in the designed process...gotta think of the experience of walking in the space....Hmm...all these comments are great..just that i cant realli stand jonathan cos he constantly ask me to do more!!! I've got no time la...aniway, it's over..just hope to do well for tod...

Tried gaving yanhan morning calls but i guess it did not help much..he could not hear his phone...Haiz..so he was late for the roll call...Den it was 8.10 am and suwei is still not in class, kamini and i are very worried so we called her again but to no avail...no one answered the phone and it reached voice mail...we tot that she was still sleeping la...Haiz...But she reached at abou 8.15a.m, just in time for the roll call...Phiew...

Edmund was present for my crit..but he din participated in the critique session, he was just sitting quietly at a corner...Thanks edmund! U've always been a great lecturer since year 1, always there to give the full support and often provide with interesting and wonderful ideas...

Went to the year 1 studio to c their crit...erm...i dun think their work is realli up to the standard la...except for some...For goodness sake, i'm realli not trying to say i'm good or watever..i noe i dun qualify la...I'm just quite unhappi because the year 1 is realli too arrogant...they claim that our work is not up to the standard and they will do betta den us...hahahahahah...we'll just wait and c....

Then after the crit, we went to sherrie's house since the student meal at siam kitchen starts at 3...so we gambled of cos..and i lost...haiz...haha...Planning to go to nam's place to gamble too...haha...we just need to relieve stress la...

I am sick again...just recovered a few days ago la...haiz

Aniway, erm..wat was i going to say....erm...argh..can't remember...brain still cant function....

Hmm....nt sure if i wld have plans for valentine... having 2nd tot abt going out..just dun feel like going out...Dan.ny as me out..together with gavin and some ppl whom i dun realli noe nor remember their names...the thought of this outing seems odd and i dun think i'll enjoy myself very much..Sorry Dan...I'd prefer staying home..haha..or hang out with my mates??? Home is still the best choice i tot...haha...I have to admit that i lead a sad life...it is either eat, sleep, work or do more work...

Then i shall tok about ITP....asked my aunt for ani vacancies in her firm...guess it shd nt be a prob there..but...i guess sab has already got plans on which firm i shd work...then edmund is asking if i wanna work in his firm..but i'm nt sure if he is jokin...My secondary school senior just asked if the ITP list was out...he's cousin who has graduated from DARCH in SP opened a Interior Design Firm..so he is askin if i had plans...Seriousli, i'm not sure about this ITP thingy..cos I'm afraid of this and that..most importantly, i dun think i'll be able to locate the company la...i'm just so bad at finding places...

Having dinner with my family on saturday and then staying over till sunday...Haven seen the interior of the new apartment...wish to take a look....Oh ya...talking about interiors...my mum and sis are talking about renovating..cos my house is like erm..haha..no comments...den i volunteered to construct a 3d model of the house...so my mummy and myself is the client...haha...sounds quite fun..but everything haf to wait till i'm quite free cos i have not started on my tod and intech test is coming up...

Guess i've written enuff for today....C ya guys!

2006-02-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

Finally!!!! I've finally managed to find time to update my blog....The final project is about to end...I've submitted my panels and models etc...I must say that i dun realli like my work....

I hate my panels cos they layout sux...the new psd file i did just can't save and it keep crashes and i have no choice but to print this sucky old panel...All human fiqures and mannequins seriousli can't make it...

Den my model, have to admit that it was my fault cos i din measure accurately and now the dimensions messed up...I could not cover my model with the outer layer...so i have Part 1 and 2 for model...plan and reflected ceiling plan..what is dis??? argh..i can't be bothered.. the model are just not nicely done la..staircase collapse and there isn't any floor finish...everything is just so not accurate...

I suddenly seem to dislike my work...the renders, models and everything...

The person whom i think the work is up to standard is probably lijin...all-rounder...construction set and everything else is realli pro. and not to mention his renders....Haiz...Look at mine...perhaps i just dun qualify to be a design student...

Some said i did too much...i was too "hardworking"....doing too many unneccesary stuff...
I cant be bothered by these comments...not because i'm "cocky" or wat-so-ever.... I just dun think i did enuff...at least at my personal point of view...and my stuff ain't good...do u guys think i can do all these without the help of the lecturers and researches from books??? i'm not up to these...trust me..

I am a pessimist....

My brains cant function properly due to the serious lack of sleep lately...sleeping for less than 10 hrs in a week...This is crazy! This is simply insane! Yeah...insane stuff to suit a insane like me....I am crazy!

Anyway, gotta thank my ah gors for encouraging me all these while when i really wanted to give up...and to my dear friends from DID o2, sorry if i flare up for nothing..i am just too stress...n the comments some gave aint pleasing to the ear....But, that isn't impt...u guys dun noe me well and i noe u are just joking...I'm just sensitive...

So i was toking to my bunch of ah gors lately and i dun understand what they are toking abt..my mind cant process...even to my classmates, i dun understand what exactly are they toking abt...I got a reply from them like dis.."u Need SLEEP"

I just woke up as i was having terrible headache since school this late noon, probably cos i did not have enuff sleep...Well, i happens quite often..i'm kinda use to it...

The class ain't what it used to be...friends aren't ike friends...i dun c real or true friends...seems like everyone is masking themselves up...careful not to reveal the true side of them...Of cos, i dun mean all...Please dun misunderstand...I dun wan to mention names..Perhaps i'm just one of them, toking abt how hypocritical i am here....Cases like i dun like u n u dun like me happens real often, causes some unhappiness...but resolve in no time... but do friends do this? Just tired about all these issues...

I shall stop writing for today and continue some other time....

Seeing stars....

2006-01-16T19:12:00.000+08:00

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2006-01-10T11:25:00.000+08:00

Went to watch King Kong with my mummy and daddy on saturday...it was Great i thought...just a little part which i felt a lil disappointed la...The part which i thought i was watching Jurassic Park 4...those who watch it will know what i'm talking about....Then, King Kong is a great and sentimental fighter...haha....Taekwando Black Belt leh...haha.....

Then on sunday, i was doing my work and my wheel mouse wasn't working properly...so i din manage to do quite a lot since i was realli handicapped with using the touchpad....Well, u can't draw plans and 3D with that...

Bought my new wheel mouse yesterday and i'm already using it....haha..Oh ya....Yixian ask me if i brought my "mouse" to see a vet....She's trying to be lame la... So my reply was, "the mouse is beyond rescue liao....so before it dies, i asked him if he wanted which way of a burial he like"
Argh..i can't imagine that i actualli entertain her like this...haha....

Got back our results yesterday for Design Studio...Got an A..no one scored an A+ this time...the lecturers were quite disappointed la...32% failed....I told my parents that many failed...they were like..."huh! how could anyone have failed design?" Come on la, why not? design is not a one man's thing la...especially for us..who basicalli does not know lotsa things...Intech Sux..everything Sux....If we have not consult any of the lecturers, we'll just get stuck with the design process la..and they will not be able to help us during crits since they have no idea how things go for us.....So i was chatting with Edmund with this....talking about the grades and the works la....He is seriousli realli concern abt us la....

Argh...watever it is....Just gotta hang on...hope that the rest of the people in the course is hanging on too....

2006-01-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

Had my crit this morning....

It was not bad...just gotta do some refinements...edit the details...erm....something like dat....

the lecturers were "fierce" today..... in the morning..and late afternoon....

I told myself to start working on T2C today after crit....

But i went shopping instead....told myself not to spend....but spent it on a straw bag....

Argh..

Went to listen some of the crits in year one...i think that their standard of model making is pretty high....but the construction set got lotsa problems....perhaps i shdn't be toking too much abt their work cos my year one works aren't good too...not even this year....Just gonna wish them all the best....

Was kinda criting the year one works with patsy today...guess the gal aren't feeling very good la...cos our's are quite negative...not realli negative la...just like pointing some errors here n dere....sorry to the year one gal if we did more harm den good....we dun mean it...just trying to help...LOL....

Feeling sinful...

2005-12-31T13:24:00.000+08:00

Since today is the last day of 2005, i shall write my last post of the year no matter how BUSY i am....

Hope the DID peeps can finish their work in time and submit on time on tuesday....I will sleep early on monday and wake up early since submission opens at 8.00am....Haven been able to wake up on time to go to school lately cos i've been sleeping at 3.30am everyday...This realli sucks and it pissed me off BIG TIME...Slept for 5 hours everyday...not being able to think properly...attitude sucks...everything sucks....LIFE JUST SUCKS!

Got scolded more and more frequently when it is towards the end of the year...wth is this....everything i do is wrong....lol....listening to music with ear piece is wrong...doing work in my room is wrong....not having breakfast as i'm late for sch is wrong...EVERYTHING is just so wrong....I seriousli cant take it anymore....

KILL ME!

Anyway...still got lotsa work to be done so i'm not going to write much.....

I have done:
1. Plans and sections (printed)
2. Model (not updated)
3. Details for stairs
4. Perspective (not updated)
5. Elevation (rendered in 3d viz)
6. TOD - Philosophical investigation
7. Client's Brief
8. Moodboard

Not done list includes:
1. TOD - Architectural investigation
2. Design generation
3. Journal

2005-12-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

I am so pissed off with DID and myself....

I tot i'd be able to finish up my plans and sections today...but it seems that i've overestimated myself...I'm still doing it now...Been working on it since last week...I'm such a slow worker and i'm starting to lose motivation in working this damn project...I really have no idea how to design my furniture and display systems and this problem has be existing 2 weeks ago....

My measuring tape is with Wee Soon and i can't measure the sizes of the furniture....so i'm very stuck with the ergonomics.... Gems not done and suwei is not free tomorrow cos her design is still not up yet...so she intend to do it last minute..which will be next week? Tuesday? i realli dun have any idea when will all these shit carry on....

I'm realli pissed off with every single thing happening around me....

I'm just too stressed up with everything....

Lijin said that i've actualli done alot of things and i'm moving on the right track...But seriously, i think i'm not and ppl...saying all these seriousli make me feel more stressed up...

I've onli completed 4 Perspective drawings...and the rest are just pure shit....

What is a plan when the furnitures are not in??? The sections i've done up are even worse...I dun even noe what is it that i'm drawing....

3D model is onli halfway done since the design is not really finalise...And what is the point of working so fast with this stupid model when it is not even one of the submission criteria in T2B??

And stop asking me how to do this and that...I'm seriously not a pro and i dunnoe a single thing....I'm realli irritated with all these constant messages to ask me for this and that....When I've not even started and doesn't have any damn ideas on how am i going to start all these shit.....

I'm realli stressed up....Perhaps i realli cant handle this level of stress....

PS: please forgive me if i've said anything to offend any of u guys...i just need to vent my frustration....

2005-12-22T12:38:00.000+08:00

My phone rang at 1.15am

Benjamin called me to ask if i was ok....

I replied "huh? what do u mean by i'm ok?"

Ben said "i read ur blog"

Me: oooo...and so?

Him: so i'm asking if u're ok? or u're still pissed...with him?

Me: erm...i guess so

Him: guess so wat? that u're ok? or u're pissed with him?

Me: well...i'm pissed with u...that u called me at this hour...(jokin)

Him: I'm sorry then....(sarcasticly)

Me: Dun have to be so sarcastic to me la...i've known u for so long...can't u tell that i'm jokin?

Him: Watever...stop the crap...so are u ok?

Me: Yesh...of cos

Him: Then thats good i think...but i think u're a lil wierd lately

Me: I do? in what way?

Him: U're wicked (laughing)

Me: lolx

Him: not wicked as in like a witch...u noe what i mean...dun u?

Me: Yes...but what can i do? i just changed after that....U know what happen....

Him: I just hope that u'll go back to ur own self...stop behaving like dis cos that is not u....

Me: I'll Try...Lolx

Him: Make sure u do

Me: Anyone told u that u're naggy? maybe u shd join my club (3 8 woman's club)

Him: I'm just trying to help u...duh....as a brother....

Me: Ya..thanks alot (sarcasticly)...so i guess u dun have much to tell me except this...if thats the case....can i hang up?

Him: U're a wicked freak....Bye bye

PS: Ben, i know what u're trying to say...and i know what i've become....i will try ba...and thanks alot bro...

2005-12-22T01:16:00.000+08:00

I shall not say much today....

All i want to say is that...

I've concluded that i'm a wicked bitch....

Sadly, but yes...

I have to admit that i'm one...

Read my Friend's blog...

He said that everyone's hypocritical...

and that includes him....

It includes me as well....

I'm hypocritical....

I just can't wait to see him die....

When i heard the news about him....

i tot i would be sad...

but i ended up having a smile....

So i smiled...

clicking on the cross situated on the top left corner of the window....

wishing and praying hard that he'll die....

i did not feel sorry for him...

not for him..

cos i tot why should i be sorry when he is not even feeling sorry himself...

for all the shit he did....

all the scars he left behind.....

I'm not sad at all...

Cos i'm filled with hatred...

onli to HIM....

Cos i HATE him...

2005-12-17T20:03:00.000+08:00

Wat i wanna say today is...MY BALL CATCHING SKILLS SUCKS! haiz..i can't catch the ball la...SIAN...

Went to Sentosa with the usual gang yesterday...played captains ball..din manage to grap the ball...thus losing the ball...sian...Played Netball with my gang today...BUTTER FINGER...haiz...I MUST POLISH MY SKILLS LE....

Aniway..the above are not realli important...

Headache today again...Shucks....

The TV show nowadays realli sucks to the core....Nothing seems to interest me much...

I realise that my Dad and my Mum are getting lamer and lamer...Yesterday was the last episode of the dancing show in Channel 8..and my parents are dancing away...cannot take it...Can u imagine that my dad is carrying my mum and dancing around....I have to admit that it is entertaining and i had a great laugh...but it is definitely not something very nice to see...haha....and mostimportantly, they're blocking my view...

Drew my perspective today, left with the rendering....gonna think of my moodboard later....

Off for dinner..bye bye

2005-12-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

I'm a slacker...and i hate it....

Been doing nothing since wednesday...I HATE IT! HATE IT! HATE IT!

I just can't start doing my CAD stuff without knowing how to use ADT....jonathan's not replying my message...weizhong who's got the "manual" din came to school...went to ask Shen, but it seems that he wasn't able to help....and i'm spending my day trying to figure out how to use the stupid architectural desktop...

SO 1 DAY WASTED...DOING NOTHING! HATE IT!

And yet tomorrow we're planning to go Sentosa while i still have many damn things not done...i simply lost my interest...it is a SUDDEN lost of interest in going there...Happily planning and not happily going...what the heck is this?? HATE IT!

Mood Board not done...not even a single idea on how to start...HATE IT!

T.O.D not done...HATE IT EVEN MORE!

Got back the intech results....satisfied and not quite...contradicting myself again....HATE IT!

Saw CCM results...A+ again...seems that i just cant get a grade like him... HATE IT!

T.O.D simply spoil the whole of my grades...and faris keep saying that they're trying to push my grades to an A...but i just can't do it....HATE IT!

I just can't set myself to do work at a corner quietly...always going to co-op of food courts so frequently...going out for movies and having fun like nobody's business...HATE IT!

I am trying very hard to be good and do my work quietly...BUT I JUST CAN'T! i'll get distracted and start going around...walking and talking...why am i like dis....HATE IT!

And my headache is killing me! HATE IT!

So here am i doing NOTHING again....

Jonathan replied me that he'll be in school at 9am on tuesday...so i'll onli be seeing him next week...i wanted to tell him that i wanna do it tomorrow so i can plot in next week...i wanted him to tell me the steps so i can write them down and follow it closely while doing it in school tomorrow...BUT I DIN...it seems that he's busy...and it is also quite difficult for him to type it in msn....

I shall set a target for myself to finish my perspective renderings and detailing this weekend...I'LL DO IT..so dun tempt me into going for outings...i just cant afford to hate myself anymore...i dun have the time to lose...i wanna do well...i wanna SCORE...

Next week is a lame week...but it also means that i have more time to do my work at home...rather than the christmas outings planned..i'll spent my time at home doing work....

I'm going to research on details for stairs...I'm gone...

2005-12-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

Went to school at 10a.m since i could not wake up at 6.15a.m as planned...

Then the first thing Faris told me as i stepped into the class was "Did you just came from gym?"

I replied "No". I wasn't surprised that he asked me that...cos i expected it..

He saw my model and told me to continue working on the designs...but i was slacking away in the studio...went to get involve at Da Ge's working corner since the rest of the class were out having their breakfast...and was disturbing them...

Suwei told me that she does not want to attend the GEMS lesson...cos she wanted to stay home and do her work...so we sent the GEMS lecturer an e-mail to ask if there'll be any assignments during the break as well as the e-learning week, which i dun haf to come for school...

BUT...we ended up going to Suntec for a movie...we managed to watch SAW 2 but miss the beginning part of the movie...It was gross...but not as gross as House of Wax...Throughout the whole movie, i was sitting in the same position as Suwei and had the same reaction as her while watching the movie....LOL....haha....

We also went to "tikam" those toys...haha...was so excited...then the guys went to the arcade to play...Patsy spent $3 on playing the machine...but she did not manage to get it...haha...Suwei spent a dollar, and did not get it too...

I'm so sian now...been having a headache since noon....got better...but headache again...sian....Was chatting with Justin just now...first thing he said was "who's the pig in the diaplay pic"....-_- but he was jokin....

Jonathan is not online now...so i cannot ask him how to pull the plans and sections from MAX to ADT...

I'm going to sentosa with the usual gang this friday...not very excited...but i dun wanna stay at home and do my work..i seriously need to find time relax...

2005-12-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

Well, apart from the very stupid incident just now, today is just another boring day, doing work in school, but ain't efficient..left school a lil earlier and got home at 5p.m...intended to do some work, but in the end i din, was online, but no work done....

School was especially boring today, perhaps bacause not many turn up. Nam Ngee, Yixian, WeeSoon din turn up, so basically the studio's quite silence...but i got no mood to do work...see faris this morning and we talk about designs, he told me to read "In Praise of Shadows" which i dun think i have enuff time for that...then, showed him my 3D model and was being told that Mdm Chan does not like students to work with COMPUTERS...not much comments about that... faris was a little shocked when i told him i have no plans and sections....NOTHING...all i have was the 3d model, which i used that to help me visualise the space... was playing around with the models to help me better understand the space and also to generate some design ideas....Then was being pushed to render the views and let him see it by 3p.m...but din get to see him as usual, he was busy...cos jonathan wasn't in school to help....

Finally left the studio at 3 plus...almost 4... went down to the yr 1 studio as suwei need to return the cutting mats and all she've borrowed from Arthur...met Edmund, guess it was the yr 1 submission...so there he are sitting down, stamping the students work...of cos not forgetting to "suan" me....Let him review the perspective i've done up using MAX....he tought i drew them, so he praised that i've improved in my sketching skills....i told him the truth..so i guess he was a little disappointed...haha...aniway, i will polish my sketching skills when i have the time, then i'll get either jonathan or my aunt to teach me 2 point perspective....

I'm bored, I'm really bored...i'm tired as well..been sleeping for just a few hours....

i'm HEADING to bed...

2005-12-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

So are there any difference between the ARCHITECTS and the INTERIOR DESIGNERS...difference as in which is more superior then the other?

I guess not ya? There should not be any ya?

I am very unhappy...VERY!

Since i'm at the beginning stage of my retail design - cos i just started to have some design ideas - i went to ask some DARCH peeps for comments...

Anonymous said something about "lourve" which is suppose to be "louvre". So i din catch the word...went to dictionary.com to check for the word "lourve" but theres not such word found...and so i return asking him whats dat?

His reply was "very cham leh, lourve also dunno. Maybe because different course."

So i replied "halo? i think u type wrongly liao, there is no such word as "lourve". Or do you mean "louvre".

And so he said "it is just a slight difference, wasn't i able to tell the difference?"

MY ANSWER IS NO!! How am i suppose to know or understand every single word u said?

What i'm angry about was not the word "LOUVRE" which he typed as "LOURVE", i'm angry because he is making sarcastic comments on DID.

He then told me he was making a comment on general, and no attacking the DIDs....and i was the one who's asking for comments but not accepting it...

If you did not notice that, i'll be kind enough to remind you that you are not making a comment, you're ATTACKING...

I admit i'm petty, i get angry over trivial matters LIKE THIS...but mind u, this is not the first time, and u know i dun like this...i've said this many times...

So what if you're from DARCH and i'm from DID...we're all from DE ya... U can live in ur own world of Architecture and not study in a school that offers Interior Design courses....I'm not trying to make any comments on Architecture, cos i appreciate it very much...i'm commenting on YOU!

I dun think i know you very well since i've not even seen you, so i will talk about any other stuff as i've no affairs with you or watever CRAPS....

YES! I'M ANGRY...I'M PETTY...and SO?

2005-12-03T16:02:00.000+08:00

Looks like i'm updating my blog every 10 days...haha...well it does not matter....went to k lunch with the usual kakis then had dinner with my family at Furama Riverfront...the good was good...cousin's wedding...oh gosh..he looks like Alex To....haha...nothing much about the dinner...nothing special....

My secondary school is having the reunion dinner at Amara Hotel last night too...heard that the food is not that nice n the event was priced $58.50 per person...hmm...i din tot it was expensive earlier...but now i felt that it was quite steep...for the events as well as the food....disappointing??? no comments...wasn't involve at all...

Bought leo ku's latest album...quite nice...different from his previous albums...he has great voice! Also, bought Nadzirah's present liao....it's a brooch...

Hmm..been quite sian in class lately, though i'm as siao as usual...but it seems that i'm putting a false front...the class is not as fun...there's been problems...people are not as close as they are in the past...people's changed..i've changed...dispute over small matters...personal comments became topics of debate...i dun wish to get too involve...but somehow i got myself involved...and was quite unhappy...

Voicing out is good...but not all comments is pleasant to the ear...though it does not really matter us...it will not affect us...but thats how the argument started...No harsh feelings should take place...i might be petty...but thats what i felt...

I tend to talk at people's back..i know thats wrong...but at least i felt it is a way to voice out...NOT IN PUBLIC..not when u din get the facts right...actualli not so much of nagative comments ba..it is just small discussion among us...

Aniway, hope it wun affect the class animore else the class will break... might sound like a hypocrite here...isn't it? but think again? isn't it the truth? all of us have attitudes...i have mine...i know i do pissed u guys off? i can sense it...though u guys din tell me...

Haiz...ok...aniway...enuff of the class stuff...

I've still not done much on the proj...shucks..sian...just finished the base model....so i'm gonna think of the design liao....watching charlie and the chocolate factory later..borrowed the very nicely done up vcd by eugene...haha....hope that it helps with my design generation...

Will stop my grandmother story liao...

PS: all these are purely personal comments...u can choose not to accept it...

2005-11-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

It's been 10+++ days since my last update....

I've finally completed my T2A and my submission is tomorrow...Yeah!! the pathlight people got another day grace cos we wasted out time to attend the very "wonderful" exhibition by the design festival...shall not mention how "wonderful" is was...

So, today, i happily went to jurong point with suwei and yixian for lunch at siam kitchen, then nam ngee n chunmeng joined us for my favourite movie - Harry Potter and the goblet of fire...
spent 100 over bucks today...*shocked* hmm...watched the movie...had the set lunch and the $78.30 ink cartridge... Broke again....

Shall talk about my favourite movie...It Rawks!! cos my no.2 darling is there...IN THE SHOW! but i wan to protest! y my darling is dead!! i dun wan him to die..he's so cute...i wan to watch the show again...

Back to the story, hmm...about the wizards tournament...and of cos, Mr. Potter was in the tournament...first was the battle of the dragons, den saving of his peers in the water and the maze (and thats where my darling met voldemont and died, i simply hate the ending)...Back again... the climax was at the end of the show... and throughout the starting and middle of the show...i was laughing n laughing...funny of cos...I like the twins...they're cute!

The sorcerer's stone and the chamber of secrets were the best out of the 4 i've seen so far, prizoner of azkaban have more twist but the storyline was ok...cut many interesting parts from the book though...wat more can i expect..it's onli a 2 hr plus show...do i expect every single detail to be in??? Nah..of cos not..ill fall asleep...but the show i've watched today was a little disappointing though i like it so much...Contradicting ya?? haha...hmm...it was nice cos the guys n gals are cute...the effects were good...HOWEVER, the storyline was a bit worse than the 3rd... i think it was much of a comedy...not very much of the magical powers in the show...

BUT I STILL LIKE IT!!! I WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN!!! I LOVE IT!!!

Will be borrowing the book - Harry Potter and the Half blood prince - from nam ngee...i wanna read it..i'll try my best to finish the book... gonna find out who have the 5th book and beg him to lend it to me...

So i got home after the movie at 7.10p.m and i bathe and had my dinner...and then, i went on to do my cardboard model...was very horribly done cos i din realli come up with a concept...wat i came up with was "SENSES"...sounds chim i thought... dun realli have an idea how to design the space...materiality is more or less thought of already...

Ok...will stop here today and i am going to dream of my darling liao..i will change the ending in my dream...he shall not die!!!

2005-11-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

Have been sleeping alot lately, got home from school and sleep for hours...woke up and sleep a few hours later again...The whole week of school just seems wrong...something is missing and it is not right..

Not feeling very well...but i'm not sure if i'm sick either....

Like today, i woke up with gastric...it is not very painful, but i just dun feel well...

I'm bored>>i'm tired>>i'm sleepy>>i'm dead

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empty empty empty EMPTY empty

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depress?? DEPRESS?? depress?? depress??

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2005-11-04T22:08:00.000+08:00

When You Thought I Wasn't Looking
When you thought I wasn't looking,
I felt you kiss me good night,
And I felt loved.

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw tears come from your eyes,
And I learned that sometimes things hurt,
But it's all right to cry.

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw that you cared
And I wanted to be everything that I could be.

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I looked ...
And wanted to say thanks for all the things I saw
When you thought I wasn't looking.
______________________________________________

Since there's not help, come let us kiss and part;
Nay, I am done, you get no more of me;
And I am glad, yea, glad with all my heart,
That thus so cleanly I myself can free;
Shake hands for ever, cancel all our vows,
And when we meet at any time again,
Be it not seen in either of our brows
That we, one jot of former love retain.
Now, at the last gasp of love's latest breath,
When his pulse failing, passion speechless lies,
When faith is kneeling by his bed of death,
And innocence is closing up his eyes,
Now, if thou woulds't, when all have given him over,
From death to life Thou might'st him yet recover.
______________________________________________

When we two partedIn silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sunk chill on my brow
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame;
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:
Long, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.

2005-11-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

I'm extremely unhappy today...not unhappy...i'm sad...I just felt so sucky...after eating the brocolli cake, we went to holland village to sort of cele kelvin birthday..Din went to TCC with them cos i was realli tired..My eyes are dry and it's painful...I'm tired!

I've got nothing much to talk about..i dun wanna complain..but i'm realli sick and tired...U can just leave me alone after reading this...Dun mind me...

Get on with your wonderful life and dun bother me...dun interfere in my life...i dun want to remember u...i dun wanna have anything that has gotta do with u...It's utter disappointment and i'm realli sick....i might sound harsh..but it is the truth...U're the reason for making me feeling so sick....It's not that i wanna end this way, i wanna be friends...but i know i can't...i'm petty....

You know i dun wanna let go, i dun wanna hurt anyone, but i'm hurting myself...but it seems it's the only way out..cos u are simply indecisive...I'm realised i'm just a toy..being toyed around...

I dun wanna mention the word "hate"...cos i dun hate u...but to me..u're such a promise-breaker(wat a word)...i used to said that promise are meant to be broken...But it seems that people break their promises made to me...Is it because i'm too sui2 bian4..if that's the case, i'll change...

I think i'm really harsh...i apologise..accept it or not... U may find that i'm being unreasonable, but i'm always like that...isn't that the case? I once said i'm a irritating person....i admit it..i'm worse that that...

I'm not in a mood to start anything...Guess i wun do well for this semester project...

I HATE MYSELF!!

I'M NOT A TOY! I DUN LOOK LIKE ONE! STOP PLAYING WITH ME! I'M NOT BORN TO ENTERTAIN ANYONE AFTERALL! I MIGHT APPEAR AS IF I DUN MIND OR GIVE A DAMN..BUT I DO HAVE FEELINGS...

Shucks! i'm dead..

2005-11-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

Met Suwei at 11.15 today at cityhall to do some research...or i shd say that we were finding retail shops related on our current projects... Din manage to find much..n we din draw anything...

Went to nam ngee's house at 3p.m den bake a cake for kelvin...nice cake..more successful than lijin's one cos it rises...Den left his house at 8p.m....

Wanna share something that is...guys think of sex every 8 minutes...wow..that's what i read from magazines...i guess so too..cos guys are simply perverts...how frequent they think of it...lol...

Today is a fun day..and yet it is nt so fun afterall...what am i toking about....Shucks

2005-11-02T19:45:00.000+08:00

The first lesson of my gems - Know Your Rights - starts this afternoon...The lesson is quite ok...the lecturer was a bit fun..but i dun really seem to understand what he's toking abt cos he's mumbling...Today's lesson was about introducing Law in cases...Some of the articles were on Oral Sex...erm...then.. suwei and i tot that maybe the course was more suitable for our class guys...esp lijin...cos he'll surely get involve with the topics....Aniway, what's impt is that this gems does not have any exams and there's onli 2 assessment...But we have to go all the way to T21 for our gems...Haix...Troublesome...

Read through lijin's blog just now...it was about his ex...Kinda understand what he's trying to say...After reading, i felt something strange again...it somehow left a impact on me...haha...i dunno how to describe it...ANYWAY, IT'S NOT SOMETHING THAT IMPORTANT WORTH TALKING ABOUT...

There's a 1 to 1 session during class today...Faris and Jonathan was talking to us regarding our results and some other issues based on the past semester...Was not very satisfacted with my results actually...

Gonna go to suntec tomorrow for some research finding based on the retail shop project this semester...still got no idea on what to design for the interior...but i tot of the lighting and the materials..not getting into the details of course...

Well, i think i'm going to start my 3d model now...i'm bored...

2005-10-31T22:57:00.000+08:00

That bright and golden red Autumn day was not the first time I had seen her there and I knew it would not be the last. I knew that she would not stop coming until she herself was no longer in this world. Seeing her always struck a sad, poignant note within me. She was the beneficary of a long, rich, full and exciting life in many of the townspeople's opinions but watching her there, at the cemetery, so many times, I had to wonder if they really knew what her life had been like. The first time she had come, she was much younger. She had arrived in a flashy, red convertible, big, shiny with a ton of chrome on it. She had come alone since she was able to drive herself then. When she climbed out of the car and started down the walk, she was dressed in an elegant black dressed that molded to her slender figure as it were part of her body instead of an apparel to cover it. She had worn a wide brimmed black hat with a veil covering her face and her neatly coiffured hair. But as she drew closer to the first of the graves, she raised the veil so I could see her face. She was a beautiful woman with classic features, a pert nose, high cheekbones, a wide brow and tiny chin. Her eyes were often said to haunt men's minds. They were large, elliptical and lavender. Very few people in this world had lavender eyes, that strange mixture of hazel and deep blue that produced the lavender color. Yet, on this time, those lovely eyes were swollen and red-rimmed and her face drawn and pale. She stopped at the first grave and stood quietly, staring down at it. I could almost sense the pain emananting from her. I saw then that she carried two roses in her left black gloved hand, one rose white and one rose red. With her right hand, she took the white rose and laid it with the upmost tenderness on the grave. Then with a sigh, so loud and so heavy that I could hear from that distance, she turned from the grave and followed the concrete walk across that section of the cemetery and into the second. She finally came to stop by a single grave, a new grave, marked by a large marble statue of an angel, with outspread wings, at its head. It was far different from the tiny headstone at the first and older grave. As she knelt on the still broken muddy ground by the freshly turned dirt on the grave, she was unmindful of her expensive, elegant silk stockings and black paten leather pumps. She only had eyes for the grave upon which she laid the single red rose at the base of the statue. She then began to weep softly but I could see from the shudders of her shoulders that the sobs were coming deep from within her. She only stayed for a short while and then she left. I did not see her for quite awhile after that, but the next week after her visit, some men came and brought something large and heavy for the older grave. I watched with interest as they worked far into the evening of that hot day and when they were done, there had been a great change at that grave. Where the tiny little headstone had once stood, there was now another statue but this one was a little girl holding a tiny baby lamb in her arms. She, too, was made of the expensive ivory marble as was the angel at the second grave. I knew it for what it was...the last devoted touch of a mother's love for the tiny baby girl that lay forever sleeping in that small grave. She had been dead for almost fifteen years now but she was still very special in her mother's heart. That beautiful, well-dressed woman had been her mother. Over the years, the second grave grew a thick coverlet of grass. The little girl statue and the slightly off-centered angel grew pale with nature's dust and rain and were no longer the glistening, gold-streaked marble that had been when they were new. Yet, ever six months or so, the woman would come to see them, always bringing a single white rose for her baby daughter and a single red rose for the man in the second grave, the baby's father. Both parents had outlived the child but now only the mother remained alive. Yet, the man had lived several years after the baby's passing, so why had there not been a second child? Ambition! An ambition so strong that it taken the woman, then just a young wife and the grieving mother, out of this town and into a world where her exquisite sophrano voice had gained her fame and great wealth. Her husband, feeling betrayed and abandoned, had refused to join her when she had achieved reknowned success. Though he had loved her, he had never desired that type of life and had chosen to remain quietly happy in their hometown. He had died in an accident and his death had brought his wife back to that town. She had taken up the task of caring for their daughter's grave as he was no longer able to tend to it as he had so lovingly done over the years and she also kept a faithful, though far-placed attendance to her now deceased husband. As the years advanced, so did the woman's age, until she retired and came home at last herself to live out the rest of her days in the town where she had been born, raised in, met her love, married him, bore their only child, and had left behind to follow a dream that had never remained disquiet within her but cried to be heard. Now, when she came, she no longer drove herself but came in a long sleek limousine, driven by the silent man who had been her driver and bodyguard for many years. She had never known that he secretly loved her but he knew that only one love ruled her heart. So he had taken care of her. She needed that care now as she was old, bent and tired but still elegant and still tragic. At last on another golden-red Autumn day, I saw the grave diggers come to the site of her husband's grave and begin to shovel the ground up next to him. I knew she had gone. This time when she came to the cemetery, she would not leave again but forever sleep in peace by the man she loved beneath the feet of that beautiful angel and in the sight of their daughter's grave with her little girl and lamb. I did not feel sad as I am really but with being a part of Nature and the Earth itself, I knew the story and the end had finally come. Now, I stand guard over all three graves and they are covered in auburn beauty as my leaves of love fall upon them. Who would think that a hundred year oak tree could see, hear, feel and know so much?

2005-10-31T22:12:00.000+08:00

Today is my first day of school...Ermz..as usual, the lecturers launch the tutorials on de first day of school...besides this, school is quite fun actualli...At least, it kept my mind occupied...i do not have to think of those stupid stuff...It was fun because i kinda like the project...but erm...the combination was a bit "off"....Massage therapy and tailored suits????? Haha...N how am i going to draw a view of a massage therapy room??? OMG!!!

Other than this, i ate pizza for lunch in school with nam nam, suwei, eileen and yixian...was too full la...So during school today...i collected $$ for peilan's present, den patsy collected for kamini's one and lijin collected $$ for mine...It's onli the first day of school and we're already training to be "loan sharks" haha....As usual, i'm still the siao siao peishan u guys noe lo...laugh here n dere...But i felt empty somehow...haha...IT'S OKIE...DUN WORRY!!! got a few msg from uncle harry lo...haha...my new personal bodyguard...just kiddin...lol...thanks uncle...so nice to me...i'm so touched....-_-" lol...haha...

Then was making ammendments to the pathlight project cos there's a exhibition coming up...After that, we went to orchard to do some findings on the various retail shops...went to paragon, far east (faris...haha) and DFS...Met my cousin and her boyfriend there...*shocked* haha...how sweet is her BF...stayed at Malaysia but still finds time to visit her once in a while...

My frens den told me that it seems that i have cousins everywhere...haha...what to do? my grandma have 17 children...so i have a very big family...hehe...and they're great ppl!!!

Left orchard at about 6 and head to westmall to meet my parents cos my daddy wans to change his phone...so went to the "hello" shop dere...den had dinner...met my friends at work...and finally, went home at 9p.m....

Doing my stuff now...trying to find some images on the project...gonna work..work and work!!!

PS: i will not bother u anymore...i promise...Wish u a very Happy birthday in a few days time...

2005-10-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

I got nothing to do so i went friendstering...then, i read this...i tot it was quite meaningful...

i'm who i'm..
i need no one to tell me what to do!
what i need is freedom!
i like the way i am..
that's me.
in any event when i may die..
throw me out to the sea..
i wanna live a life floating in the ocean !

i live in my own world with my own rules
i speak my mind.
in another words..
i'm straight-forward.

a broken heart is just like a mirror that can never be mended to perfection
cos its been filled with scars & painful memory of what you had left for me..
whenever i closed my eyes..
i could see all those promise..
those empty promises..
you gave me your words..
but you never kept them.
'live-die-laugh-cry'
its all the same for me
they''re jus emotions
not worth bothering about anymore..
lovin you was a big mistake right from the start but i didnt want to be rightwhen i saw the look in your eyeswhen you told me all those lies..
i used to think you're special... you're different from others..
but you took away my smile.. my laughter and what you left behind was a broken heart..
my broken heart..
a delusional beginning a perfect misunderstandingan unforgettable ending....

lesson i learned-trust nobody expect yourself-cherish every moment and everybody before it`s too late-never let stupidity & stubborness ruins your life

2005-10-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

Was reading Kamini's blog just now and i certainly agree that the SP webby for gems registration is sooooo -_-"
I took half an hour to finish the whole registration...OMG...it realli pissed me off...and what kind of appointment time is it for us to register our gems at 6p.m???? when i finally got to log in the stupid webby, there's onli 4 vacancies left...and it got stuck again for another 10 mins or so... therefore, i called suwei to ask her about the gems registration...Then, i reload the whole damn thing and start all over again...this time...the gems that we initially wanted was all taken...Wow...*clap hands* It's wonderful rite??? Gotta change gems..Okie..so i was on de phone with suwei...then, we decided to choose Know Ur Rights as out gems next sem, then again...it took such a long time to load and 2 vacancies left..*clap hands again* means suwei n i haf to sort of "fight" for the module cos we are registering at the same time and who knows others might be registering at the same time too....N again, it took again another 5++ mins to load...and FINALLY, we got into the same class...phiew...

What a hassle...

Then, just a few minutes ago, i was chatting with lijin...asking him for Tsubasa...since i missed quite a number of epi as i was realli busy...
We are not chatting much cos he got something more "important" to do...which was to play his game...Wow...how impt it was...haha...aniway, the content of our conversation was something about BGR...
but before that, he said that i was ver high..asking if anything happened to me??? I replied, "I was never normal rite? I'm always siao...i was born like this..."
He said my standard was too high...but i tot i did not realli set a standard for this and why does it seem that many of my frens said so?? Then, lijin said that i'm realli fierce so, whoever that i like might not realli suit me...it must be someone who like me first...haha...Aniway, i was telling him that i no longer give a damn to this cos it is tiring..

Nothing realli bothers me much now...

Sch is finally starting soon...Yeah!!!

2005-10-25T11:45:00.000+08:00

I'm fine...i'm realli fine..

Thanks for all ur concern...haha...so long never visit my blog and i have so many msg on the tagboard...thankie...And thanks for Edmund..sending me a msg to ask me not to cry n take care...-_-"" thanks la...

Been working for 4 continuous day at suntec, causeway point, westmall and suntec again...finally got a chance to rest...i'm soooo tired...sales been so bad for the past few days...Haiz....My nose is blocking again...Shucks..Listening to my bao bei mp4 everyday at work..playing games in my phone till it went dead...doing some craft at work...COS I HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO....

Met Edmund and Sabrina at work that day..as usual...got "SUAN" by edmund lo...i'm used to it liao...But it was quite fun la...entertain my day at work...Den, uncle Harry came to buy me dinner...his driving lesson was cocked up..haha....Gambatte yo! U can do it de la..though i'm smarter den u...hahaha....den met my cousin n went home together....Was with my friend on saturday cos he accompanied me to work, then, i met Tian yih and Yichun...haha...den Harry came and entertain me again...Thanks! Went home together with Tian yih when we both knock off....Sunday was a betta day cos i was working at westmall and the know the people betta dere...Yesterday was horrible, not to mention the sales...I was bored...but i met my brother...haha...Yang Jia Feng, with her girl...dun haf to buy me christmas present liao...haha...then i realised that time really flies..It's been a year since i last met him at my workplace...

Gonna work at causeway point on friday and saturday this week...full shift again...Wish me luck..

2005-10-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

My life is back to what it is a few months ago...i made a decision, i think i'm right..i noe my friends will support me...but i just can't help crying...i'm breaking down...i know i have to get over with this by myself...no one can help me...IT IS JUST SOMETHING I CAN'T SAY...i couldn't tell my family..i dun wish to tell anyone either..cos their advice dun work...it doesn't work on me...so save it..dun bother advising me...

I'm just an utter loser after battling it for about 2 years..It's been a long time since i felt so lost..this is a battle that i've lost entirely for my 18yrs of life...i've admitted defeat..cos i know i will breakdown even further if i hang on..thus i decided to let go...i spent 2 days thinking...and i choose to face it..not avoiding anymore...I JUST CANNOT TAKE IT!

For my friends who's reading this...please dun ask me what happen, i know u guys are concern about me...i'll talk when i feel it is the right time to talk..right now, just dun bother too much about me...i dun want to vent my fustration on you...leave me alone...i'll be fine..thats what i hope so...Thanks for your concern and understanding...

Hey peeps...stop assuming that i'm strong, i was never a strong-willed girl, I WAS NEVER. i am a irritating person who gets hurt easily, i love to cry...i'm always like this. U never once know me..u can never understand what's got into me...NEVER!

I'm not gonna write anymore...

PS: dun have to apologise..it is not your fault, it is my decision...I've expected this...Hope your life would've been better...

2005-10-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since my last post..so i'm gonna post something today since i'm free....

Worked on saturday n sunday...full shift at suntec..gonna lose my nose liao la...keep sneezing n all those shit...the cart beside me is BioSense..selling those aroma-therapy stuff...den the shop in front of our cart is Body Shop...gonna die from all these rojak smell...i've always been sensitive to these type of things...to me..i find dat any perfume is shit to me..so i was never into perfumes and aroma-therapy stuff...cos my nose just can't stand it...so i think i will request to work at other outlets...SHIT!! I'M SNEEZING AGAIN!

Was working on saturday and i met 2 very cute guy...haha...one asked for my number...my reply was "sorry, i'm married", showing him my ring on de wedding finger...haha...his fren is very chatty...since i'm bored...i entertain him too lo...he asked me why i'm married at such age...i told him i'm 24 lo...he believed la...cos i look old...i admit ok...den he ask many other stupid questions la...haha....

Met my primary school fren on sunday...haha...he's my long lost brother....cos his surname is de same as mine...haha...my ah gor very cute de leh....ears get red very easily de...haha...6 years nvr c him...but i think we din change much also....so i came out with this idea of having a class gathering...but i was worried that not many people will be interested in going...he told me not to worry..cos he'll be de first to volunteer to go..haha....ask another primary school friend..she said she'll go too...haha...i din noe that my primary school peers are so enthu in such gatherings..afterall, we've not met for years....

Went to sakae with suwei, namngee and yixian today...a little pathetic la...cos onli the four of us...but we're freaks la..wierdos...WE ATE 65 PLATES OF SUSHIs....hahaha....siao rite....i think the waiter n waitress dere scared of us...n we wanted to take pictures of the plates...so we din wan them to collect the finished plates...we're siao....Sakae is going to close down if we stayed longer...just jokin la...we can't eat anymore also...dying liao...haha...but so sian...not many people go...den din do much also...not gonna have sushi for quite some time liao...i'm sick of it...i'm not very into japanese foodie also la...haha...

Will end here...will update if i have de time...i'm tired...gonna cut my nose off soon...take care guys..

2005-10-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

I'm back...

Reached home at 6.15p.m today...den went to sleep after my bath...so shiok...was so hot n humid at my grandma's place....but was fun though...bought a new wallet...hehe...den a I.D magazine...played mahjong...won some $$$..but not much la..but i always very unlucky in playing mahjong de ma...hmm..shd say i dun play very well la...i am retarded...yes i am...

I'm still tired...feel so sian...i dunno y...feel like sleeping 24/7...i'm a pig....

Going to party world with my sec schoolmates tomorrow, town on wednesday, movie on thurs, friday's not planned yet...working from saturday onwards......wow...packed schedule....lol...

Kids do grow fast...the last time i went back to malaysia, the kids there are still small...now, they can run and speak...they are soooo cute....haha...but the life there is not realli very enjoyable if u stay for too long...it is quite boring actualli. In order to get to a place where there's shopping centres, u have to drive a certain distance...then..besides eating and sleeping, basically u do nothing else...though this is the life i always wanted to lead when i'm in singapore...but i dun seem to enjoy it that much when i'm there...But..the foodie there is nice...better then the food here la...always have supper everynight...mahjong session...vcd session...haha....

Gonna end here...nothing much to crap...buaix