Thursday, October 20, 2005
10:06 PM
My life is back to what it is a few months ago...i made a decision, i think i'm right..i noe my friends will support me...but i just can't help crying...i'm breaking down...i know i have to get over with this by myself...no one can help me...IT IS JUST SOMETHING I CAN'T SAY...i couldn't tell my family..i dun wish to tell anyone either..cos their advice dun work...it doesn't work on me...so save it..dun bother advising me...
I'm just an utter loser after battling it for about 2 years..It's been a long time since i felt so lost..this is a battle that i've lost entirely for my 18yrs of life...i've admitted defeat..cos i know i will breakdown even further if i hang on..thus i decided to let go...i spent 2 days thinking...and i choose to face it..not avoiding anymore...I JUST CANNOT TAKE IT!
For my friends who's reading this...please dun ask me what happen, i know u guys are concern about me...i'll talk when i feel it is the right time to talk..right now, just dun bother too much about me...i dun want to vent my fustration on you...leave me alone...i'll be fine..thats what i hope so...Thanks for your concern and understanding...
Hey peeps...stop assuming that i'm strong, i was never a strong-willed girl, I WAS NEVER. i am a irritating person who gets hurt easily, i love to cry...i'm always like this. U never once know me..u can never understand what's got into me...NEVER!
I'm not gonna write anymore...
PS: dun have to apologise..it is not your fault, it is my decision...I've expected this...Hope your life would've been better...
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