Since today is the last day of 2005, i shall write my last post of the year no matter how BUSY i am....
Hope the DID peeps can finish their work in time and submit on time on tuesday....I will sleep early on monday and wake up early since submission opens at 8.00am....Haven been able to wake up on time to go to school lately cos i've been sleeping at 3.30am everyday...This realli sucks and it pissed me off BIG TIME...Slept for 5 hours everyday...not being able to think properly...attitude sucks...everything sucks....LIFE JUST SUCKS!
Got scolded more and more frequently when it is towards the end of the year...wth is this....everything i do is wrong....lol....listening to music with ear piece is wrong...doing work in my room is wrong....not having breakfast as i'm late for sch is wrong...EVERYTHING is just so wrong....I seriousli cant take it anymore....
KILL ME!
Anyway...still got lotsa work to be done so i'm not going to write much.....
I have done:
1. Plans and sections (printed)
2. Model (not updated)
3. Details for stairs
4. Perspective (not updated)
5. Elevation (rendered in 3d viz)
6. TOD - Philosophical investigation
7. Client's Brief
8. Moodboard
Not done list includes:
1. TOD - Architectural investigation
2. Design generation
3. Journal
I am so pissed off with DID and myself....
I tot i'd be able to finish up my plans and sections today...but it seems that i've overestimated myself...I'm still doing it now...Been working on it since last week...I'm such a slow worker and i'm starting to lose motivation in working this damn project...I really have no idea how to design my furniture and display systems and this problem has be existing 2 weeks ago....
My measuring tape is with Wee Soon and i can't measure the sizes of the furniture....so i'm very stuck with the ergonomics.... Gems not done and suwei is not free tomorrow cos her design is still not up yet...so she intend to do it last minute..which will be next week? Tuesday? i realli dun have any idea when will all these shit carry on....
I'm realli pissed off with every single thing happening around me....
I'm just too stressed up with everything....
Lijin said that i've actualli done alot of things and i'm moving on the right track...But seriously, i think i'm not and ppl...saying all these seriousli make me feel more stressed up...
I've onli completed 4 Perspective drawings...and the rest are just pure shit....
What is a plan when the furnitures are not in??? The sections i've done up are even worse...I dun even noe what is it that i'm drawing....
3D model is onli halfway done since the design is not really finalise...And what is the point of working so fast with this stupid model when it is not even one of the submission criteria in T2B??
And stop asking me how to do this and that...I'm seriously not a pro and i dunnoe a single thing....I'm realli irritated with all these constant messages to ask me for this and that....When I've not even started and doesn't have any damn ideas on how am i going to start all these shit.....
I'm realli stressed up....Perhaps i realli cant handle this level of stress....
PS: please forgive me if i've said anything to offend any of u guys...i just need to vent my frustration....
My phone rang at 1.15am
Benjamin called me to ask if i was ok....
I replied "huh? what do u mean by i'm ok?"
Ben said "i read ur blog"
Me: oooo...and so?
Him: so i'm asking if u're ok? or u're still pissed...with him?
Me: erm...i guess so
Him: guess so wat? that u're ok? or u're pissed with him?
Me: well...i'm pissed with u...that u called me at this hour...(jokin)
Him: I'm sorry then....(sarcasticly)
Me: Dun have to be so sarcastic to me la...i've known u for so long...can't u tell that i'm jokin?
Him: Watever...stop the crap...so are u ok?
Me: Yesh...of cos
Him: Then thats good i think...but i think u're a lil wierd lately
Me: I do? in what way?
Him: U're wicked (laughing)
Me: lolx
Him: not wicked as in like a witch...u noe what i mean...dun u?
Me: Yes...but what can i do? i just changed after that....U know what happen....
Him: I just hope that u'll go back to ur own self...stop behaving like dis cos that is not u....
Me: I'll Try...Lolx
Him: Make sure u do
Me: Anyone told u that u're naggy? maybe u shd join my club (3 8 woman's club)
Him: I'm just trying to help u...duh....as a brother....
Me: Ya..thanks alot (sarcasticly)...so i guess u dun have much to tell me except this...if thats the case....can i hang up?
Him: U're a wicked freak....Bye bye
PS: Ben, i know what u're trying to say...and i know what i've become....i will try ba...and thanks alot bro...
I shall not say much today....
All i want to say is that...
I've concluded that i'm a wicked bitch....
Sadly, but yes...
I have to admit that i'm one...
Read my Friend's blog...
He said that everyone's hypocritical...
and that includes him....
It includes me as well....
I'm hypocritical....
I just can't wait to see him die....
When i heard the news about him....
i tot i would be sad...
but i ended up having a smile....
So i smiled...
clicking on the cross situated on the top left corner of the window....
wishing and praying hard that he'll die....
i did not feel sorry for him...
not for him..
cos i tot why should i be sorry when he is not even feeling sorry himself...
for all the shit he did....
all the scars he left behind.....
I'm not sad at all...
Cos i'm filled with hatred...
onli to HIM....
Cos i HATE him...
Wat i wanna say today is...MY BALL CATCHING SKILLS SUCKS! haiz..i can't catch the ball la...SIAN...
Went to Sentosa with the usual gang yesterday...played captains ball..din manage to grap the ball...thus losing the ball...sian...Played Netball with my gang today...BUTTER FINGER...haiz...I MUST POLISH MY SKILLS LE....
Aniway..the above are not realli important...
Headache today again...Shucks....
The TV show nowadays realli sucks to the core....Nothing seems to interest me much...
I realise that my Dad and my Mum are getting lamer and lamer...Yesterday was the last episode of the dancing show in Channel 8..and my parents are dancing away...cannot take it...Can u imagine that my dad is carrying my mum and dancing around....I have to admit that it is entertaining and i had a great laugh...but it is definitely not something very nice to see...haha....and mostimportantly, they're blocking my view...
Drew my perspective today, left with the rendering....gonna think of my moodboard later....
Off for dinner..bye bye
I'm a slacker...and i hate it....
Been doing nothing since wednesday...I HATE IT! HATE IT! HATE IT!
I just can't start doing my CAD stuff without knowing how to use ADT....jonathan's not replying my message...weizhong who's got the "manual" din came to school...went to ask Shen, but it seems that he wasn't able to help....and i'm spending my day trying to figure out how to use the stupid architectural desktop...
SO 1 DAY WASTED...DOING NOTHING! HATE IT!
And yet tomorrow we're planning to go Sentosa while i still have many damn things not done...i simply lost my interest...it is a SUDDEN lost of interest in going there...Happily planning and not happily going...what the heck is this?? HATE IT!
Mood Board not done...not even a single idea on how to start...HATE IT!
T.O.D not done...HATE IT EVEN MORE!
Got back the intech results....satisfied and not quite...contradicting myself again....HATE IT!
Saw CCM results...A+ again...seems that i just cant get a grade like him... HATE IT!
T.O.D simply spoil the whole of my grades...and faris keep saying that they're trying to push my grades to an A...but i just can't do it....HATE IT!
I just can't set myself to do work at a corner quietly...always going to co-op of food courts so frequently...going out for movies and having fun like nobody's business...HATE IT!
I am trying very hard to be good and do my work quietly...BUT I JUST CAN'T! i'll get distracted and start going around...walking and talking...why am i like dis....HATE IT!
And my headache is killing me! HATE IT!
So here am i doing NOTHING again....
Jonathan replied me that he'll be in school at 9am on tuesday...so i'll onli be seeing him next week...i wanted to tell him that i wanna do it tomorrow so i can plot in next week...i wanted him to tell me the steps so i can write them down and follow it closely while doing it in school tomorrow...BUT I DIN...it seems that he's busy...and it is also quite difficult for him to type it in msn....
I shall set a target for myself to finish my perspective renderings and detailing this weekend...I'LL DO IT..so dun tempt me into going for outings...i just cant afford to hate myself anymore...i dun have the time to lose...i wanna do well...i wanna SCORE...
Next week is a lame week...but it also means that i have more time to do my work at home...rather than the christmas outings planned..i'll spent my time at home doing work....
I'm going to research on details for stairs...I'm gone...
Went to school at 10a.m since i could not wake up at 6.15a.m as planned...
Then the first thing Faris told me as i stepped into the class was "Did you just came from gym?"
I replied "No". I wasn't surprised that he asked me that...cos i expected it..
He saw my model and told me to continue working on the designs...but i was slacking away in the studio...went to get involve at Da Ge's working corner since the rest of the class were out having their breakfast...and was disturbing them...
Suwei told me that she does not want to attend the GEMS lesson...cos she wanted to stay home and do her work...so we sent the GEMS lecturer an e-mail to ask if there'll be any assignments during the break as well as the e-learning week, which i dun haf to come for school...
BUT...we ended up going to Suntec for a movie...we managed to watch SAW 2 but miss the beginning part of the movie...It was gross...but not as gross as House of Wax...Throughout the whole movie, i was sitting in the same position as Suwei and had the same reaction as her while watching the movie....LOL....haha....
We also went to "tikam" those toys...haha...was so excited...then the guys went to the arcade to play...Patsy spent $3 on playing the machine...but she did not manage to get it...haha...Suwei spent a dollar, and did not get it too...
I'm so sian now...been having a headache since noon....got better...but headache again...sian....Was chatting with Justin just now...first thing he said was "who's the pig in the diaplay pic"....-_- but he was jokin....
Jonathan is not online now...so i cannot ask him how to pull the plans and sections from MAX to ADT...
I'm going to sentosa with the usual gang this friday...not very excited...but i dun wanna stay at home and do my work..i seriously need to find time relax...
Well, apart from the very stupid incident just now, today is just another boring day, doing work in school, but ain't efficient..left school a lil earlier and got home at 5p.m...intended to do some work, but in the end i din, was online, but no work done....
School was especially boring today, perhaps bacause not many turn up. Nam Ngee, Yixian, WeeSoon din turn up, so basically the studio's quite silence...but i got no mood to do work...see faris this morning and we talk about designs, he told me to read "In Praise of Shadows" which i dun think i have enuff time for that...then, showed him my 3D model and was being told that Mdm Chan does not like students to work with COMPUTERS...not much comments about that... faris was a little shocked when i told him i have no plans and sections....NOTHING...all i have was the 3d model, which i used that to help me visualise the space... was playing around with the models to help me better understand the space and also to generate some design ideas....Then was being pushed to render the views and let him see it by 3p.m...but din get to see him as usual, he was busy...cos jonathan wasn't in school to help....
Finally left the studio at 3 plus...almost 4... went down to the yr 1 studio as suwei need to return the cutting mats and all she've borrowed from Arthur...met Edmund, guess it was the yr 1 submission...so there he are sitting down, stamping the students work...of cos not forgetting to "suan" me....Let him review the perspective i've done up using MAX....he tought i drew them, so he praised that i've improved in my sketching skills....i told him the truth..so i guess he was a little disappointed...haha...aniway, i will polish my sketching skills when i have the time, then i'll get either jonathan or my aunt to teach me 2 point perspective....
I'm bored, I'm really bored...i'm tired as well..been sleeping for just a few hours....
i'm HEADING to bed...
So are there any difference between the ARCHITECTS and the INTERIOR DESIGNERS...difference as in which is more superior then the other?
I guess not ya? There should not be any ya?
I am very unhappy...VERY!
Since i'm at the beginning stage of my retail design - cos i just started to have some design ideas - i went to ask some DARCH peeps for comments...
Anonymous said something about "lourve" which is suppose to be "louvre". So i din catch the word...went to dictionary.com to check for the word "lourve" but theres not such word found...and so i return asking him whats dat?
His reply was "very cham leh, lourve also dunno. Maybe because different course."
So i replied "halo? i think u type wrongly liao, there is no such word as "lourve". Or do you mean "louvre".
And so he said "it is just a slight difference, wasn't i able to tell the difference?"
MY ANSWER IS NO!! How am i suppose to know or understand every single word u said?
What i'm angry about was not the word "LOUVRE" which he typed as "LOURVE", i'm angry because he is making sarcastic comments on DID.
He then told me he was making a comment on general, and no attacking the DIDs....and i was the one who's asking for comments but not accepting it...
If you did not notice that, i'll be kind enough to remind you that you are not making a comment, you're ATTACKING...
I admit i'm petty, i get angry over trivial matters LIKE THIS...but mind u, this is not the first time, and u know i dun like this...i've said this many times...
So what if you're from DARCH and i'm from DID...we're all from DE ya... U can live in ur own world of Architecture and not study in a school that offers Interior Design courses....I'm not trying to make any comments on Architecture, cos i appreciate it very much...i'm commenting on YOU!
I dun think i know you very well since i've not even seen you, so i will talk about any other stuff as i've no affairs with you or watever CRAPS....
YES! I'M ANGRY...I'M PETTY...and SO?
Looks like i'm updating my blog every 10 days...haha...well it does not matter....went to k lunch with the usual kakis then had dinner with my family at Furama Riverfront...the good was good...cousin's wedding...oh gosh..he looks like Alex To....haha...nothing much about the dinner...nothing special....
My secondary school is having the reunion dinner at Amara Hotel last night too...heard that the food is not that nice n the event was priced $58.50 per person...hmm...i din tot it was expensive earlier...but now i felt that it was quite steep...for the events as well as the food....disappointing??? no comments...wasn't involve at all...
Bought leo ku's latest album...quite nice...different from his previous albums...he has great voice! Also, bought Nadzirah's present liao....it's a brooch...
Hmm..been quite sian in class lately, though i'm as siao as usual...but it seems that i'm putting a false front...the class is not as fun...there's been problems...people are not as close as they are in the past...people's changed..i've changed...dispute over small matters...personal comments became topics of debate...i dun wish to get too involve...but somehow i got myself involved...and was quite unhappy...
Voicing out is good...but not all comments is pleasant to the ear...though it does not really matter us...it will not affect us...but thats how the argument started...No harsh feelings should take place...i might be petty...but thats what i felt...
I tend to talk at people's back..i know thats wrong...but at least i felt it is a way to voice out...NOT IN PUBLIC..not when u din get the facts right...actualli not so much of nagative comments ba..it is just small discussion among us...
Aniway, hope it wun affect the class animore else the class will break... might sound like a hypocrite here...isn't it? but think again? isn't it the truth? all of us have attitudes...i have mine...i know i do pissed u guys off? i can sense it...though u guys din tell me...
Haiz...ok...aniway...enuff of the class stuff...
I've still not done much on the proj...shucks..sian...just finished the base model....so i'm gonna think of the design liao....watching charlie and the chocolate factory later..borrowed the very nicely done up vcd by eugene...haha....hope that it helps with my design generation...
Will stop my grandmother story liao...
PS: all these are purely personal comments...u can choose not to accept it...
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